Sunday Afternoons

You've gotta love it when you fall asleep on the couch with your husband, and you wake up with drool running down your forehead. Hahahaha, I seriously was pretty grossed out for a second, mostly because it's bodily fluid. Dan and I were laughing so hard for a few minutes about it though. Oh I love it!

On a side note, I found out Saturday (after studying for chemistry for a couple hours with Jennifer and Shelyse) that I got into the nursing program at BYU. I'm finally starting to get excited and happy about it. I think I've just been super stressed about this chemistry test just because I already needed a good grade, and then I was feeling even more stressed to do well on this chemistry test (I'm taking it Monday morning, so if you read this before then, keep me in your prayers!).

Anyway, today was really nice to go to church because I really just needed to know that my Heavenly Father is aware of us and exactly how we're feeling and what we're going through. I just needed to know that we're gonna be okay, that we're gonna make it through this. I've just had a lot of stress get piled on...ya know the usual school, money and just life in general, it's rough. So church today was so nice to just relax and listen-the Primary Program was today- and feel the Spirit. Exactly what I needed. I was reminded and could feel the Lord's love for us, and that as long as we're doing what we need to be doing, and have faith, the Lord is going to help us. It was a great reassurance to know that as long as we're working together to progress, the Lord will bless us.

I love my husband and I'm grateful for the trials we go through because we get to go through them together. We don't have to be alone in it-not that we ever are, because the Lord is always there.

Dreams

So Dan told me this morning that he had a dream last night that we had a baby...and it was a little girl.

I'm trying not to get excited about it, but I hope it doesn't mean we won't ever have girls...because let's face it little girls are just fun.

Don't worry...I'm not pregnant! And won't be anytime soon. But I just had to share. One day. :]

My rice maker tried to shank me!

Gospel truth. I was cleaning the top lid thingy and right under the rubber piece is a sharp piece of metal!! It sliced my finger clean open. That was yesterday. My finger still hurts....and the cut still hasn't closed. Boo.

Today...I really miss the cotton fields in Thatcher. Today feels like one of those days we'd go take pictures in it and laugh hysterically while taking them. 

I really miss my friends too. A lot actually. It sucks when you really had it great for awhile, and trying to find something or someone to even compare-that is quite a challenge. Don't get me wrong, I love love love Dan, but it's not the same as your girlfriends. 

On a MUCH happier and brighter note, Jennifer Curtis and I have devised a plan: HOW TO COMPLETELY DOMINATE OUR NEXT CHEMISTRY TEST. 

It goes like so:

Start studying 2 weeks before the test for an hour on Saturdays (that's this Saturday, mind you we just had a test on Friday of last week). 

Then the week of the test, we study every day for an hour, even if it's at 11 at night. 

I think it's a pretty good plan. That way number 1, we all actually study, and number 2, we can help each other. After all, college is all about the study groups. Rude that no one has invited us to be in theirs. Selfish.

Last night, Dan and I were looking at Hawaiian wedding rings because for my next ring (keep in mind I'm planning 10 + years into the future) I want a Hawaiian one. Ps they're beautiful! 

And they match!! So anyway, we were looking at them last night just for fun and Dan says to me, "Don't worry about the price. (brief pause) Oh crap, it's right there!" 

I was laughing so hard! He's so cute.

Then 2 nights ago (sorry I've failed to blog in the last couple of days, so I've got to play catch up) we were watching all these veggie tale videos on youtube from Silly Songs with Larry. Dan has never seen Veggie Tales, and so we just kept clicking on more and more videos to watch. We were laughing so hard. 

Personal Favvv:

Oh and today is my five, yes FIVE! month anniversary of being married to Dan! And as of yesterday, we've been dating for one year...no wonder 5 months doesn't feel like that's nearly long enough. :] love you mumu

05.13.11 Best day ever <3

The Dew.

I've had the craving for dew for the last couple of days. Then I remembered where I go to school. The closest thing to caffeine is caffeine FREE coke. LAME LAME LAME LAME LAME.

Today, I decided to indulge.

It. Was. Heavenly.
Fountain of course...not from a can. :]

Thank you dew for making my day THAT much better. I can't wait till we meet again.

Faith

"All who call on God in true faith, earnestly from the heart, will certainly be heard, and will receive what they have asked and desired." -Martin Luther

I feel like lately we've hit quite the bump in the road. Trials are supposed to make us stronger. I know that they humble us and bring us closer to God if we approach them with the right attitude. Sometimes, though, it's just hard. Sometimes I think (very selfishly I might add) why can't we just catch a break?

Then I look at everything we've been blessed with. We just figured out today that we can BOTH stay on our parents insurance until we're 26! Not that we'll stay on that long, but that's a huge relief right now. We don't have to quite worry about paying for that just yet.

Dan has a job, and might possibly be getting another one! He applied and interviewed at Sportsman's Warehouse earlier this week. Ironically enough, they're hiring in the HUNTING department. How perfect would that be for him? Not only would he be working at one of his favorite stores, but he'd love it because it's a hunting/outdoors store. The job he has now is such a blessing. He's more than providing for us, and he gets to talk to people all the time (another thing he loves).

We have an AWESOME ward. Coming from Texas, I didn't have too high of expectations for this ward, but it's been nothing but warm and welcoming. I know I've mentioned this before, but there are quite a few other couples in our same situation-newly married, living in a basement, etc- but more than anything, the people are just nice. I've had someone new sit by me every week and talk to me. That's such a relief to be in a ward that actually takes the time to fellowship new members. I already feel a part of the ward and we've only gone for 4 Sundays. We're even making chili for the ward activity this month. It's a Chili/Dessert cookoff!

We have so many other things to be grateful for that will strengthen us through our trials. We're healthy and we have a roof over our heads. We have family that loves us and is praying for us as much as we're praying for them. More than anything, we strengthen each other together. I realize more and more every day that I need him more than anything in this life. Between he and I and the Lord, we'll make it through everything and anything.

Together. Forever.

Embrace your trials. They're a gift. If you ask the right questions, you'll make it through.

For all those times you stood by me

Don't mind the cheesy title. As of late though (and I mean the last 4 days) I've had this overwhelming fear that something is going to happen to Dan. Literally overwhelming. Like I start balling uncontrollably and just collapse because I can't stand the thought of it. Not the normal "I can't lose you" feeling that you feel when you hear a sad story. It's bad. And super random. And I hate it.

I'm honestly hoping and praying every night that it's not some premonition. My mom thinks it's probably because he was gone for so long that I'm afraid of that happening again. All I know is that it will just randomly hit without warning and it's usually at night before we're going to bed.

So if you're not in the mood to read some lovey dovey post about my husband, you can stop reading right now and stalk someone else's blog. If you don't mind me sharing a few of the many reasons I love him, stay right here and I'd be delighted to indulge you.

Dan is the perfect man for me. Absolutely perfect for me. Now I don't want you to think he's a perfect person. He's not. But he's exactly what I need and I'm so grateful every day that the Lord and I agreed on that one. He makes me laugh, especially when I'm in a grumpy mood. He just keeps going until I'm so irritated I'm laughing. Mood change completely.

Cleanliness: He's always picking up and cleaning up our apartment. During the week, I'm usually pretty busy with homework and studying for tests, so I have papers spralled out across our living room. I love that he just does the dishes after dinner and even stacks my homework into neat little piles so that it looks nice and cleaned up. He doesn't complain, and he just does it. It's the best thing ever.

I love that he loves to watch Disney movies with me. We've been on a Tangled and the Princess and the Frog kick lately and he gets just as excited about the movies as I do. I absolutely love that he'll indulge my child-like moments and spend the time with me.

He's always worthy to go to the temple and to take me there. We try to go every week and it's so fun to be able to make those very very special memories together and be helping other people as well. I love it.

Anyway, I just love the crap out of him and I'm so grateful I get to spend forever with him. How lucky am I.

All these things shall give thee experience

Man alive I have not blogged in almost a month (tomorrow). And that's definitely got to change. Honestly though, I can't say I've wanted to blog. There's nothing exciting or funny going on as of late and all it would be is just complaining and whining about how much I miss Dan and being alone sucks. Word.

But, my tune is about to change very soon. Dan is coming home next week!! I can't even begin to describe how excited I am about that. I'm so glad that he's going to be home and we won't ever have to be apart like this again. Seriously, if you ever have a choice: don't do this. It's awful. I won't lie to you or spare you the details. I cry a lot. And I've decided I really hate being alone. I miss my friends. I've been looking back on the pictures from Thatcher and it makes me so depressed. I really never thought I'd miss that one horse town, but I do. And I miss Arizona....a lot. Call me crazy, but I miss the desert and the cactus and the dirt.

I didn't get too attached to Texas...actually I was never attached to Texas...because I knew it was temporary. I went into that experience knowing it was temporary. Probably why I was glad to leave it. I miss the girls there. I miss going to the gym and dragging Jaynee along with me. I miss laying out at the pool and having real conversations with Jaynee and Abby (probably the only real social contact we had all day till our husbands came home). I miss Maria and the boys. They're a bunch of little spit fires, but you can't help but love them.

At the end of the day, I really just miss Dan and want so badly for him to be here. This bed has never felt so big and empty. I find myself sleeping in the middle so it doesn't feel that way. I'm sure Dan won't appreciate that too much when he gets here and I'm in his space.

But in retrospect, all of these things have forced me (yes forced...because I didn't choose this willingly) to grow up a little bit more, to still rely on myself for things, and to rely on my Heavenly Father. I really think I've said more prayers in the middle of the night in the last 2 weeks than I have in a long long time. But He's there. And I know He's there. He hears me and He is answering my prayers each and every day, because most days I can wake up and find something to smile about. The great weather outside, the mini work out I get every day from those atrocious stairs (they're still kicking my butt), and my cute little apartment that I get to come home to every day.

My sister in law, now she's something else. She's got strength that I hope in time to find within myself. She reminded me that I need to rely on the Lord, and that even though it won't take the loneliness away, His love can provide a sense of comfort. I've been learning that too. Slowly but surely, I'm recognizing Him more and more every day in my life. I hope this isn't setting me up for something bigger though. That would not be cool. But if that's what is asked of me, then that's what I'll do.

I was walking to my car Wednesday after class and it was definitely a downer day. I couldn't help but feeling alone and abandoned almost. The phrase from a scripture "all these things shall give thee experience and shall be for thy benefit" popped into my head. I just helped me to see that I am being watched over, He knows what I'm going through, and He's not leaving me alone.

Anyway, this has been kind of a downer post. It totally wasn't supposed to be. But I guess, for me at least, I don't hide how I feel. I'm getting a little big stronger. I can say though, that out of this experience, I've gained so much respect for anyone who has had to be without their husbands or wives for extended amounts of time. They are amazing. Hands down.

"Do not pray for easier lives. Pray to be stronger."