Sunday, February 27, 2011

Beginning to understand...this sucks

So I think I'm finally beginning to realize after almost 5 months of dating why it is that M bugs Dan so much. I honestly for the longest time had a pretty big problem with it because I just didn't understand why he couldn't just take my word for it that I wanted to be with him and not M and that that is never going to change. And it hit me like a freaking wall of bricks yesterday. It's just like peach. UGH I hate realization moments sometimes. They really suck a big one.

It's that uncertainty, that need to know that no matter what it's always going to be you that they want at the end of the day. I don't know why I can't let it go. I mean peach doesn't talk to him and sure as hell is not about to say one word to me at all--which quite frankly pisses me off because let's not even try and pretend that we don't have a history but let's instead play the silent treatment game. I really would much rather be pleasant to each other, say hello and smile and acknowledge each other's existence and that we do know each other. Instead it's this awkward strain every time I see peach or am in the same room. Freak, today at church I was walking down the hall with Dan and just the sight made my stomach turn in knots. I know he loves me and would never leave me but it's just hard ya know? I honestly never thought I'd be this bothered by peach being out of my life...but peach is still in it!! I see peach at least twice a week on a regular basis...thank you for being in my class. FML. Okay not that dramatic, but you get it. I know it's ridiculous, trust me I do. Abbie reminds me of that. And I know I have the best thing ever out of the whole situation, but it's one of those things that doesn't really bug you till you have one of those days, ya know?

I really can't wait to be in Utah...actually Texas. That will be SO AWESOME! End of story.

Aside from peach, my friend (and I use friend pretty loosely...we're more acquaintances) just got engaged and it keeps popping up in my news feed!! I'm honestly getting irritated seeing it and sometimes I can't help but feel that mines never gonna happen. I know we're supposed to be together and we're going to Texas together, but it's just feels so far away sometimes. It's happening. I know it is...but the anticipation is killing me! The little stinker doesn't tell me anything anymore, which I'm all for a surprise but sometimes a ball park idea of when would be awesome. But it's alright...good things come to those who wait. :]

Geez...reading back at this, I sound super hostile. This midol is sure not helping with the moodiness...oh heck it's not even moodiness, I just want to be with him. It's pathetic. But its all I want to do all the time, just to be with him running errands and doing whatever.

On a brighter note, it snowed for a little bit today in T-town. It was terribly exciting, so much so that we all stood outside and took pictures in it. You know you live in Arizona when you brave the elements to take pictures in the snow/hail outside your apartment.

Words to live by: If you trust God enough to listen for His message in every sermon, song and prayer...you will find it. And if you then go and do what He would have you do, your power to trust Him will grow, and in time you will be overwhelmed to find that He has come to trust you. --Henry B. Eyring

Thursday, February 24, 2011

Classic

Perfect example of why I love him...

He goes to hockey games with me.


He leaves cute notes on my bathroom mirror.


Let's me leave RIDICULOUS hearts all over his windows.

Makes me DELICIOUS steak dinners.


Yes...I'm spoiled. I know. :]


Dresses all "matchy matchy" with me.

Wears cute mechanic outfits. Such a handyman!


Plays dress up in my shortie shorts...and then poses for a picture. NOTE: ignore the bras hanging up in the background.


Takes me fishing.


Leaves the most adorable notes all over my door.


So he's just about the greatest thing ever. And I think everyone should know. The end.

Leprosy and a Pimple...WTH?!?!

I'm convinced God has a sense of humor, because 1. I went to bed already starting to peel from my lovely sunburn, and 2. I woke up this morning with the works of a HUGE pimple coming along. GREAT. It makes it even better that Abbie says this, and I quote: I have no sympathy for you. Haha love you Abbs!!

Seriously though, it sucked...and pretty much made me want to hide out all day...well for the rest of the week at least until this peeling thing settles down. The pimple I can live with, shoot that's why there is make up! But seriously, peeling is just down right nasty! Yuck!! I hate it and it's my own skin!!

It's pretty funny though because Dan came by in between classes to see me (awwww) and I just didn't even want to see him! Okay, let me rephrase that, I did want to see him more than anything, but I didn't want him to see me. Understandable right? So I just covered half my face and said I look disgusting! Which this is most definitely truth, and I wasn't compliment fishing at all...just saying how I felt about the whole "sloughing of the fried skin" look.

Let's just say that I've got the best boyfriend ever...because he still thought I looked good. Maybe because he's supposed to, maybe because that's what girls usually want to hear, but maybe because he really loves me for me...good day or bad one. And I love him too. Presh.

Anyway...point of story: I have leprosy and a pimple and am in dire need of a shower, especially to make an appearance at Dan's basketball game tonight. Haha...sooooo vain sometimes. But hey everyone is entitled to those moments every now and again right? Which brings me to the real question: should I wear my hair curly or straight?

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

I'm having a party...a party for two

Sierra Vista Weekend: BEST THING EVER!

Well this action packed weekend started off on Friday night. Let's just say that Thatcher has got to be one of the most exciting places around...especially when everyone just up and leaves. But really, it ends up being these times that we have the most fun. Well, we decided that we wanted to go out to Roper Lake because they had a hot tub so we wanted to go. When I say we, this is who I mean: Me, Dan, Raegan, Hannah Gunderson, Cody Elmer, Kelton Merrill, Blaine Greer, Brian Baldwin, Stephanie Daley, Hillary Savage, and Jessica Martindell.

So long story short, we go out to Roper and the guard is still there, so we went to the duck ponds at the fair grounds to wait until 1030 ish so we could go back there. We were running around playing tunnel tag and throwing the ball around. It was actually pretty fun. There was one point where I was frozen, so Blaine is going through my legs--keep in mind that Blaine is 6'3" or 6'4" so he's a tall guy--and he starts to stand up before he's gotten all the way through so his hips catch my legs and I end up jumping up and almost falling over because of it. It was so funny! But what was funnier what that not even 5 minutes later, the exact same thing happened to Jessica when Brian went to go under her!

We went back out to Roper and the guard was just patrolling around the park...so needless to say, we weren't getting into the hot tubs tonight. So we decided to go out to the river and have a bonfire and possibly get into the water. I mean it's only February. The water can't be that cold right? WRONG!! So we got the bonfire started and all the  boys went into the river and jumped in except for Blaine...pansy. Haha just joking. So then the boys spent the rest of the night throwing all of us girls in. Yeah that water was dang freaking cold. Don't worry, I tried to fight it and I have the bruises on the back of my legs to prove it, but to no avail. I still got dumped in. It. Was. Awesome. NOT.

Saturday morning, Dan and I left for Sierra Vista around 8 in the morning. We were only a half an hour late...and this is the first time that it's been my fault. I think that's a record or something. Anyway, we get to Sierra Vista around 10 and hung out with his parents for a little bit, made some muffins--which were delicious!, and then ended up taking like a two hour nap. I tell ya, naps might just be one of the best things ever. So after our lovely little nap, we made some chocolate chip cookies and popcorn. Are you seeing a theme here? We bake a lot! That night for dinner we went and got chipotle, and I'm pretty sure that was a little bit of heaven in a burrito. I haven't had that for over a year and it was sooo delicious. Thinking about it makes my mouth water. YUMMMM.

Sunday we had church at 1...so that kind of sucked waiting around forever for it to finally be 1. It was good though. I met all of Dan's friends and his bishop told us that we should just get married already. Haha funny stuff. So in Relief Society, they asked me to introduce myself and I was like "Umm...I'm Arielle." Then Megan butted in and said "She's my roommate and Dan Haban's friend" along with Sister Goates who also said "She's Dan Haban's friend!" Yeah I think I turned ten different shades of red and realized why I don't like being the visitor. It's so awkward! Haha his mom wasn't even there to introduce me :[ she was sick.

Matt and Rhianna got there around 5 and we had chicken enchiladas for dinner!! Oh man...you know I'm pretty biased when it comes to cooking because let's face it...my mom's is the best, but oh dang Dan's mom's cooking runs a dang close second. It's that good. See why I probably gained weight? Haha so we just hung out with them and played a game of Monopoly with cards. I don't remember what it was called but it was pretty fun.

Monday we had a delicious breakfast with eggs and bacon and french toast and then we went fishing. Well I've never been fishing...and the whole concept of it still being alive when you grab it out of the net to take the hook out of it's mouth is just NASTY! Matt caught the first fish and had it right behind my head so when I turned around...there was mister fish all flopping around right in my face!! YUCK! So I jumped up and screamed GET THAT THING AWAY FROM ME! Everyone turned and looked at me...and then Dan's family started laughing at me...probably thinking why in the heck did we bring her along? But when Dan caught a fish, he made me hold it and oh my gosh I was holding that thing as far away from me as possible. The pictures will come one day, but they are pretty funny. I'm standing as far away from the fish as possibly while still holding it. It's hilarious. Then Dan and I hiked around the lake for a little bit. It was super pretty and we skipped some rocks...okay attempted to skip some rocks...we suck at it. Pretty bad.






Oh I neglected to mention how sunburned I got! I totally forgot to wear a hat or put on sunscreen! So my face looks like a tomato!! Monday night we went on a pajama run to McD's for a ice cream cone. It was delicious. On pajama runs though, you have to run out to the car in whatever you have on, so Dan wouldn't even let me put my shoes on so he gave me a piggy back ride to the car. Haha. We came back on Tuesday and it was just a fun little ride home. I was feeding Dan some chicken enchiladas and I was doing the airplane and the choo choo train because he was driving. Oh man...it's a good thing he loves me because sometimes I'm freaking weird. Haha.

Long story short: this weekend was the bomb dot com and I'm pretty sure I gained 10 lbs...and I loved every minute of it! The end.

Thursday, February 17, 2011

Well I've been afraid of changing

"...cause I've built my life around you. But time makes you bolder, children get older, and I'm getting older too."

Alright that doesn't really have anything to do with my blog post. Actually it has nothing to do with it, it was just the song that was playing when I started writing this...or rather thinking up what to write. As of late, I've been terrible about blogging. But lets look at the facts: 1. I'm not cute and married. 2. I don't have kids to tell funny stories about. and 3. Well life has been pretty entertaining lately, but I just don't have the time to sit down and write it all. (I'll probably wish I had one day...oh well).

So last night Dan and I were just talking about his brother and we don't really talk about it too much. I'm not uncomfortable asking him about it, but it makes me so sad because I think of  my little brother (crap I'm crying already and I haven't even typed that much! Ahh I really hate being a girl sometimes) and just how much that would impact my life, how much I love that little man and how I have always looked forward to seeing him get the priesthood in a few years and then go on mission a few years after that and then getting married one day. I've always been excited to have one more sister!

Back on topic: the thought crossed my mind about being on the flip side of that situation and having that happen to your best friend or husband. I don't really know a whole lot about the situation and I've never met Dan's sister in law, but I just started crying last night. Its funny how the thought of losing someone makes you realize how much you can't live without them. I honestly don't know what I'd do without him. Yeah he's a pain in the butt sometimes and knows just how to push my buttons, but I wouldn't trade any of it for the world. The little stinker made me fall in love with him!

I was thinking about lots of people that I know and how much so many of them have had to deal with in their lives and not to compare my life and my trials with theirs, but for comparison's sake, my life has been relatively easy, which makes me absolutely terrified for what is ahead. I look at those people that have had to deal with a lot more than maybe they probably deserved, but they have come out on top, and they are some of the strongest people I know. I envy that strength just a little bit, in that they have it and could probably conquer the world with it if they wanted. I hope this is making sense, because it sounds pretty good in my head but might not be coming out so well.

I was reading my patriarchal blessing a few nights ago and it mentions that I've been blessed for the family I've been put into, and thinking about it just now makes me realize how truly blessed I am. I've never questioned whether or not I was loved, I've always known that my parents love each other (even though my sisters and I scream and yell THATS GROSS when they kiss each other). I've been truly and richly blessed in my life with perfect examples of hard work and love and making a marriage and a family work. My family is not perfect by any means, and I'm sure we could give some people and run for their money with how much we fight sometimes, but at the end of the day, I wouldn't doubt that we would kill for each other.

Nothing is ever going to be perfect in our lives, and there are always going to be trials. Life is never going to be easy, but it will always be worth it. I don't want to live a day without my best friend, but if that is what is asked of me one day, I hope that I can face fire and keep on fighting. I hope that I can always live worthy to go to the temple and feel the peace that it has to offer. I am so grateful for the blessings I've been given in the best roommates, especially Abbie. We get a long pretty dang good and I'm so glad that she wanted to live with me! She is so strong and is a perfect example of taking it each day at a time: some days you slip and other days you're on top of the world.

Anyway, that is all. Now that I'm looking at it, this starts off super depressing. Woops! Not what I meant to do at all. But at least it's out there and off my chest for a little while.

Off to the gym! Tootles :]

Some food for thought. Swish it around in your mouth and think about it:
"In the end, everything will be okay. If it's not okay, it's not the end."

Thursday, February 3, 2011

I wanna run smash into you

So maybe I kinda like you just a little bit...
And maybe I really want to go to Texas...
And maybe I don't ever want to let you go...
And maybe I wanna stay with you...for a long long time...maybe forever...

And maybe all these "maybes" are actualities.
In fact...I'm pretty sure they are.
I know they are.

I love you.

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

There she goes...There she goes again...

Wow this was a freakin awesome weekend!! I mean, most of our weekends end up being pretty legit, but this one was SAWEET! Brief overview: Pizza and Ice Cream making date on Friday, Caves on Saturday, In-N-Out after the caves, Dan teaching church on Sunday, epic heist of a coveted DVD, classes on Monday, and the RAIN, FHE Monday night with Howie--it's not as bad as it sounds, and ending the night with my love. Woo!! I'm already excited about writing this! Let's get started!!

The date was super fun!! I'm glad I had Dan though...because the company  wasn't exactly my favorite in the entire world. Alright, let's just be honest, they bug me...especially since one of them does not like me at all but puts on the super nice "oh how are you?!" face--psh like they actually care. Haha. Whatever. It was fun though making the pizza and putting all the toppings and stuff. Dan is pretty much a pro pizza maker! We played Just Dance on the wii while the pizza cooked and Dan and I won almost every time. It was probably the remote...haha who am I kidding...Dan and I are AMAZING dancers! After the pizza, we had homemade ice cream!! Nothing short of delicious! We went over to the institute to watch Despicable Me afterwards. It was the YSA activity for Friday night. If you haven't seen it, I'd totally recommend it.

After the movie, we all went over to Tiffany's house and had cake and ice cream for Jacquelyn's birthday. Then Kacey the Magnifico arrived!! She did some awesome magic tricks...and we're hiring her for Abbie's birthday for sure!

Saturday, we headed down to Tucson to go caving! Yes we were climbing through small passageways and ended up covered in dirt and crap all over ourselves. There was even a dog with a flashlight around his collar who followed us around for a little bit. We found one of the lakes that is in the cave and Rustin Jones, Jared Haymore, and Travis Catt all jumped in and were swimming around in there for a little bit. YUCK!! They said it felt pretty good actually, but I wasn't about ready to jump in stagnant water. Who the heck knows what is growing in there! We made it to the book this time!! All of us made it! Well except for Jared Haymore, Dan and Kendall Rapier. They decided to go off on their own adventure and got left behind. We signed their names anyway.

After we got out of the caves, we went to In-N-Out for dinner. Oh my goodness I forgot how much I love that place! It might have been because I was so hungry that anything honestly sounded good, but it was super yummy and made my tummy quite happy. On the drive back, Rustin mooned Tiffany's car as we passed them. As soon as we got off the off-ramp, we pulled over because Rustin had to pee. We drove a little ways up the road just to mess with him and we see this car pull up and just shine their lights on him. Turns out, it was Tiffany's car and they stayed there and were dancing for all the cars that passed them while waiting for us. Apparently they didn't realize that we'd passed them a LONG time before that. Haha.

Sunday morning, I went to Dan's ward because he was teaching combined Priesthood/Relief Society. His and Natalie's lesson was so good. I think my favorite part was when they talked about how important it is to be modest and morally clean. Natalie said that if a guy is trying to spend the night or is letting you spend the night, he's not respecting you as a daughter of God.

Sunday night, we may or may not have participated in the heist of a certain DVD. It's still up for debate as to whether we were active participants or not. If it did happen, it was quite thrilling, and Abbie and I certainly got a good work out from it when we ran back to our apartment.

Monday was the same old same. Except holy cow stressful! BYU application was due Feb 1 and I had to get so much crap done for it. I guess it doesn't really help that I'm a killer procrastinator so I was writing my essays in between my patho class and my sociology class. But hey it all got done and before 4 pm and that's all that counts. So I went to my writing class and peach is in that class, but get this: we don't even acknowledge each others existence. It's honestly quite irritating...and I'm not even sure why because it shouldn't bug me but it really does. OH it gets even better though...peach deleted me from facebook. BAHAHA I almost friend requested peach but then I thought better of it and decided who cares.

SIDE NOTE: it's been raining!! and blowing up a hellish storm. It's somewhat irritating and I had a super hard time getting out of bed this morning because I just wanted to stay curled up in my bed and read a book.

Monday night we went to FHE and learned about the 10 commandments and the little actions that go with it. So the guy that taught the lesson...well let's call him Howie. So Howie comes up and starts talking to me after FHE. We were eating dessert and everyone else was playing bump out. At the risk of sounding super conceited, he was definitely flirting it up with me asking all the questions: OH I didn't catch your name? How long have you been here? Blah blah blah. Well I immediated decided I had to nip this one in the butt fast so that I a. Don't lead him on. and b. could still potentially be friends--alright acquaintances--if I see him at church and stuff. So I noticed he had a sports med shirt on and asked him if he worked down in the training room at all. He answered yes and so I had a way to bring up Dan without being ridiculously obvious about it. The next part of the conversation goes as follows:

Me: Oh so you do you work down there (the training room) a lot?
Howie: Yeah I do!
Me: That's cool. So do you know Dan?!
H: Umm maybe?
Me: He's short and brown.
H: Oh yeah I know him, he's pretty cool, helps me out a lot.
Me: That's awesome! He's my boyfriend!
H: Oh your boyfriend?!
Me: Yeah!
H: Wow.....cool.

OHHH man I had to keep myself from laughing because it really was quite funny but sad at the same time. I didn't mean to be so cut and dry, but hey he'll thank me later when he doesn't have to waste time on me right?

I'd say it's been a pretty eventful weekend and it can only get better. Raegan is wearing a moo moo and looks like an old lady with stage make up on that she had to do in class. Point made. And now we are off to visit Hannah.


Making fettucini alfredo tonight for the roommates and my love. Hopefully this time I won't burn it...the distraction will be in class. ;] Well idk...Raegan might be a huge distraction right now...she's walking around with a big butt shake. Hahaha I love my roommates what can I say.

:] LOVE MY LIFE.