Life...Marriage...Exercising...everything.
Wednesday night was a big defining moment in my marriage. I had a hard day at work. I came home, and just absolutely and completely lost it on my husband. One of the salesman was...how do I put this nicely...a huge a-hole. HUGE.
Anyway, he was pissed because the samedays were done and he didn't get the text (come to find out later, pretty much no one gets the texts I sent out). It had happened the day before too unfortunately with the same salesman and he just lost it on me. He was like why didn't you text me?! I didn't get the text!!! Blah blah blah. To keep it simple, I got stomped all over like the disgusting dirt you kick off your shoes at the end of the day. No small exaggeration.
At this point, the culmination of being stomped on all summer by all the salesman at some point just hit the peak. I texted the salesman to make sure he did in fact receive my text. He did. I apologized that he didn't receive it and then informed him to never speak to me like that again. Adrenaline rush. Hands were a little shaky. But seriously, I am a freakin human being and I deserve a little respect and not to be treated like a second rate second class citizen or an inferior human being. Not okay. Not freakin okay.
After I texted that to the salesman, I called Dan to ask if that was overboard. He said yes it was. Now to his defense (because right now he sounds like a jerk...he's definitely not!!) he just didn't want it to cause more problems for me through the rest of the summer. He wanted someone else to handle it, someone higher up and with more authority. I have no faith whatsoever in the system. It fails me on a pretty consistent basis and it's just pointless to even pretend to rely on the system. I end up looking like the whining girl who can't take the heat. And I am most definitely can take the heat.
I let it all out...quite literally. I was crying and screaming and probably swearing some and just exploded every pent of feeling of being the second rate second class citizen and inferior because I'm a girl on my husband. Poor guy, he doesn't get it. I don't think he ever will be able to. It's a girl thing, not something he'd ever experience, but it's okay because he sits and listens to me cry about it. He hates to see me cry. I feel bad because I cry...a lot.
So after this, we had a good talk. A really good talk. Dan mostly talked, and I listened. Hearing it though was so great because I really got to see how wonderful my husband really is, and how dang freakin lucky I am that he's mine forever. He has tried so hard in his life and made so many changes that I didn't even know about (before we even met) to make him the man he is today, the husband he is to me, and the father he will be one day. I love him and it's days like Wednesday that I'm reminded how truly grateful I am that he is in my life and the he chose me.
Marriage is hard. But it's the most worthwhile struggle and journey I've ever undertaken. It's the greatest joy in my life and the source of the most pain at times. I don't think it could be any other way, giving yourself wholeheartedly to another does that. It's complicated and wonderful. And it's worth it.
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Friday, June 22, 2012
Saturday, June 9, 2012
Baseball caps and t-shirts
I've been meaning to blog for quite some time now. There's all kinds of things to blog about here in Denver, but let's just chalk it all up to the fact that I work too much...especially right now.
Denver has been great so far, but definitely not what we had expected out of the summer. I guess you win some and you lose some. Honestly it's just a little frustrating when you plan things and then it just doesn't work out that way. It's okay, don't get me wrong, we're happy, but it's just a little frustrating. The frustration comes to a culminating point every so often and I just break down. Two nights ago this happened. I just couldn't take it anymore...I'm working on a coping mechanism, but haven't quite managed to find one that works for me.
Basically it just came down to the fact that I miss Dan. We've been so go go go ever since we got married. We left for Texas, I left for school, Dan was working 3 jobs (I still can't believe he did that!), and then I got into the nursing program, Dan left on recruiting trips to Idaho frequently, and then we came to Denver. I started working...50+ hrs a week. It's just been so so busy and honestly I feel like we lost each other a little bit. We're happy, don't get me wrong, but I just miss being friends and having time to just hang out with each other.
As much as it sucks, I think this has been good for us though to really decide what we want to do. We made some life directional decisions and have a rough outline of what we're doing after this summer.
Dan got accepted to UVU! So he's going back to school in the fall...maybe. He hasn't quite decided because originally he was going to have to take placement tests and stuff by the 15 of June to be accepted, and obviously that one wasn't going to happen. At that point, we had pretty much decided he'd take a class or two just to get back into the groove of school, work some and then start during the winter semester. So being accepted was definitely a blessing, but now it's the toss up...what do we do? Dan wants to get a full time job, take a class or two and get us settled back into a home that we'll be in for the next year or two. Let's face it, I'll be doing clinicals, and I pretty much will not have a life so any settling in will not get done by me.
Life has been good to us though. We just celebrated our ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY!! (well...it was almost a month ago) I'm still not sure how I feel about that though. It went way too fast. Lucky for me I have forever with that man and I'm so so excited for all of it. We're happy, we're healthy, and I really don't have too much to complain about. I wish I blogged more, but I'm working on it. We've had some seriously funny things happen to us lately but for the life of me I can't remember a single one of them. So as they come to my head I'll jot them on this post. It's my catch all right now, so if you read all the way through...props my friend, props.
One that I do remember though is on Wednesday there was a killer storm moving in through Denver and according to the weather lady all it was supposed to be was 50 mph winds from about 5-9 pm. No big deal. Well high speed winds is a HUGE deal apparently when it's combined with rain and hail! Luckily at work it just rained so I didn't have to worry about the hail aspect when driving home, but the boys had basketball that night. It was sprinkling when I got home around 10 and Dan and I left for the Church at 1015 at the latest and it was pouring already! After 3 games (they only go to 9 pts) I was ready for bed (it's 11 mind you and 730 just always seems to creep up on me earlier than the day before). Being the good husband that he is, Dan said okay and we left, only this time the rain was coming down in buckets. There are no words to describe the amount of rain that was falling from the sky. We made it home just fine, after all a little rain never killed anyone. After about 10 minutes of being home, believe it or not the rain came down even harder and was much much louder. I went outside on our balcony to check it out and then noticed it actually look like it was hailing. Sure enough dime size hail was cascading down the roof of the apts and it actually looked like snow on the ground. Quite a bit made it onto our porch. I was honestly shocked and worried about our car (there's no covered parking anywhere in the complex unless you have a garage). It was super crazy and cool at the same time. Luckily it stopped hailing after 20 or so minutes and went back to rain, but it was nuts!
I've been pretty lucky that I haven't seen too much wildlife activity in my apt, and by wildlife I mean spiders. Well I was thinking to myself it's been so great and wonderful that I've really only seen one cricket (which seriously scared me to death--pathetic). I picked up Dan's lunch box and set in on the counter and a huge wolf spider crawled up the side! I dropped it and just screamed! It scared the poop outta me! Dan killed it of course and that was the end of it. Later that day I was washing the sheets and we had a little spider crawling in our bed!! I flipped...again...and killed it by myself but at that point I was like this is not okay! Not okay! I texted Jed (the branch manager in Denver) and told him I NEEDED my apt sprayed asap because spiders are not okay, at all! Especially not in my bed!
It's been a pretty busy summer so far. I can't believe it's already June! I just want things to slow down a little bit, but at the same time I want to get back into school. It's a little pathetic but I kind of miss studying a ton for tests because I just love learning about the body. It's probably a good thing I chose nursing to go into.
As for the rest of the summer, I've decided I'm going to be Happy. I know that seems like a silly thing to decide but I've just been miserable lately. Dan and I both have. I try to stay positive but I'm just miserable and frustrated with life in general. We were watching a clip on youtube about a guy who has no arms and no legs. I don't remember his last name, but his first name is Nick, and he's from Australia. He has the best attitude and watching that video just helped me to realize happiness is a state of mind and a choice. It's choosing to be happy when everything around you tells you otherwise. It choosing to be happy amidst the struggles, and choosing to be happy when at the end of the day you'd rather cry than smile. It's okay to get down, but don't get stuck in a rut. Just be happy. This life is the greatest blessing and I for one want to be happy and enjoy it.
It's a baseball cap and t shirt kind of day and I'm happy about that. :]
Denver has been great so far, but definitely not what we had expected out of the summer. I guess you win some and you lose some. Honestly it's just a little frustrating when you plan things and then it just doesn't work out that way. It's okay, don't get me wrong, we're happy, but it's just a little frustrating. The frustration comes to a culminating point every so often and I just break down. Two nights ago this happened. I just couldn't take it anymore...I'm working on a coping mechanism, but haven't quite managed to find one that works for me.
Basically it just came down to the fact that I miss Dan. We've been so go go go ever since we got married. We left for Texas, I left for school, Dan was working 3 jobs (I still can't believe he did that!), and then I got into the nursing program, Dan left on recruiting trips to Idaho frequently, and then we came to Denver. I started working...50+ hrs a week. It's just been so so busy and honestly I feel like we lost each other a little bit. We're happy, don't get me wrong, but I just miss being friends and having time to just hang out with each other.
As much as it sucks, I think this has been good for us though to really decide what we want to do. We made some life directional decisions and have a rough outline of what we're doing after this summer.
Dan got accepted to UVU! So he's going back to school in the fall...maybe. He hasn't quite decided because originally he was going to have to take placement tests and stuff by the 15 of June to be accepted, and obviously that one wasn't going to happen. At that point, we had pretty much decided he'd take a class or two just to get back into the groove of school, work some and then start during the winter semester. So being accepted was definitely a blessing, but now it's the toss up...what do we do? Dan wants to get a full time job, take a class or two and get us settled back into a home that we'll be in for the next year or two. Let's face it, I'll be doing clinicals, and I pretty much will not have a life so any settling in will not get done by me.
Life has been good to us though. We just celebrated our ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY!! (well...it was almost a month ago) I'm still not sure how I feel about that though. It went way too fast. Lucky for me I have forever with that man and I'm so so excited for all of it. We're happy, we're healthy, and I really don't have too much to complain about. I wish I blogged more, but I'm working on it. We've had some seriously funny things happen to us lately but for the life of me I can't remember a single one of them. So as they come to my head I'll jot them on this post. It's my catch all right now, so if you read all the way through...props my friend, props.
One that I do remember though is on Wednesday there was a killer storm moving in through Denver and according to the weather lady all it was supposed to be was 50 mph winds from about 5-9 pm. No big deal. Well high speed winds is a HUGE deal apparently when it's combined with rain and hail! Luckily at work it just rained so I didn't have to worry about the hail aspect when driving home, but the boys had basketball that night. It was sprinkling when I got home around 10 and Dan and I left for the Church at 1015 at the latest and it was pouring already! After 3 games (they only go to 9 pts) I was ready for bed (it's 11 mind you and 730 just always seems to creep up on me earlier than the day before). Being the good husband that he is, Dan said okay and we left, only this time the rain was coming down in buckets. There are no words to describe the amount of rain that was falling from the sky. We made it home just fine, after all a little rain never killed anyone. After about 10 minutes of being home, believe it or not the rain came down even harder and was much much louder. I went outside on our balcony to check it out and then noticed it actually look like it was hailing. Sure enough dime size hail was cascading down the roof of the apts and it actually looked like snow on the ground. Quite a bit made it onto our porch. I was honestly shocked and worried about our car (there's no covered parking anywhere in the complex unless you have a garage). It was super crazy and cool at the same time. Luckily it stopped hailing after 20 or so minutes and went back to rain, but it was nuts!
I've been pretty lucky that I haven't seen too much wildlife activity in my apt, and by wildlife I mean spiders. Well I was thinking to myself it's been so great and wonderful that I've really only seen one cricket (which seriously scared me to death--pathetic). I picked up Dan's lunch box and set in on the counter and a huge wolf spider crawled up the side! I dropped it and just screamed! It scared the poop outta me! Dan killed it of course and that was the end of it. Later that day I was washing the sheets and we had a little spider crawling in our bed!! I flipped...again...and killed it by myself but at that point I was like this is not okay! Not okay! I texted Jed (the branch manager in Denver) and told him I NEEDED my apt sprayed asap because spiders are not okay, at all! Especially not in my bed!
It's been a pretty busy summer so far. I can't believe it's already June! I just want things to slow down a little bit, but at the same time I want to get back into school. It's a little pathetic but I kind of miss studying a ton for tests because I just love learning about the body. It's probably a good thing I chose nursing to go into.
As for the rest of the summer, I've decided I'm going to be Happy. I know that seems like a silly thing to decide but I've just been miserable lately. Dan and I both have. I try to stay positive but I'm just miserable and frustrated with life in general. We were watching a clip on youtube about a guy who has no arms and no legs. I don't remember his last name, but his first name is Nick, and he's from Australia. He has the best attitude and watching that video just helped me to realize happiness is a state of mind and a choice. It's choosing to be happy when everything around you tells you otherwise. It choosing to be happy amidst the struggles, and choosing to be happy when at the end of the day you'd rather cry than smile. It's okay to get down, but don't get stuck in a rut. Just be happy. This life is the greatest blessing and I for one want to be happy and enjoy it.
It's a baseball cap and t shirt kind of day and I'm happy about that. :]
Thursday, May 10, 2012
TODAYYYY...
I'm living in Denver Colorado. I love it, most days. The only days I don't like it are when I get sunburned driving to work, and when Dan gets bloody noses because the air is so dry here. Oh and the days that the sun comes up before 630...which is every day. But it's growing on me. I don't sleep in passed 730 anymore, not that I could with school, but I might as well keep up the schedule right?
I work for Dan's company in the office taking care of "samedays" and initial services. It's good work and even better money, but let's say putting in around 50 hr a week...not okay. Starting Monday though I go to part time...thank goodness! Let's just put it this way, I'm way too involved in the inner workings of the company between the salesman and the techs. It's just too much. I just want to be a wife, Dan's wife, and work a couple days a week.
Anyway, we do love it here. It's been such a great experience thus far and it's only going up from here. I haven't blogged in a long time. I need to. I suck at writing in journals, it takes too long, and I might as well just keep a blog.
My one year anniversary is on Sunday. So is Mother's day. It kind of seems fitting. Honestly, when I first found out that's when my anniversary was going to be, I was a little miffed. Thank you leap year. But I went and bought some Mother's Day cards for my momma and my mother in law. It just seems right that we get to celebrate the joining of our families and the huge blessing our mothers are in our lives.
Sunday will be a much, much better post. But it was just a thought.
I've been really cranky lately. I quick the pills, the birth control pills that is, and I think they're still working their way out of my system. I feel a lot more emotional, but I think that's probably a good thing. I feel happier anyway, and that was honestly the whole reasoning behind it. I wanted to be happy again. Honestly truly blissfully happy. And I'm getting there. I'm going running again in the mornings, and I just feel like I'm finding myself again, finding the girl my husband married, the woman he loves. I'm finding her again, and that is one of the best feelings, aside from being unconditionally loved.
I love you Dan. Thank you for being patient with me, and loving me anyway.
I work for Dan's company in the office taking care of "samedays" and initial services. It's good work and even better money, but let's say putting in around 50 hr a week...not okay. Starting Monday though I go to part time...thank goodness! Let's just put it this way, I'm way too involved in the inner workings of the company between the salesman and the techs. It's just too much. I just want to be a wife, Dan's wife, and work a couple days a week.
Anyway, we do love it here. It's been such a great experience thus far and it's only going up from here. I haven't blogged in a long time. I need to. I suck at writing in journals, it takes too long, and I might as well just keep a blog.
My one year anniversary is on Sunday. So is Mother's day. It kind of seems fitting. Honestly, when I first found out that's when my anniversary was going to be, I was a little miffed. Thank you leap year. But I went and bought some Mother's Day cards for my momma and my mother in law. It just seems right that we get to celebrate the joining of our families and the huge blessing our mothers are in our lives.
Sunday will be a much, much better post. But it was just a thought.
I've been really cranky lately. I quick the pills, the birth control pills that is, and I think they're still working their way out of my system. I feel a lot more emotional, but I think that's probably a good thing. I feel happier anyway, and that was honestly the whole reasoning behind it. I wanted to be happy again. Honestly truly blissfully happy. And I'm getting there. I'm going running again in the mornings, and I just feel like I'm finding myself again, finding the girl my husband married, the woman he loves. I'm finding her again, and that is one of the best feelings, aside from being unconditionally loved.
I love you Dan. Thank you for being patient with me, and loving me anyway.
Saturday, December 31, 2011
2011...what you were all about
January: I went back to school at EA to start my last semester there. I had no idea where I was going to go after that, but I knew I was graduating that semester.
February: Things got pretty serious between Dan and I. We knew we were going to get married, just not when or any of those other minor details. I also applied to BYU. It was pretty much the only option I had left. ASU's nursing program was just a numbers game, and I couldn't count on that. So I applied.
March: We got engaged!!! That's right! We were getting married. Then commenced the insufferable wedding planning. Just kidding, it really wasn't bad, mostly because I didn't care. Sorry Mom!! We went wedding dress shopping over spring break and found the perfect dress!
April: I found out I got into BYU...so after Texas we were headed to Provo. School was winding down for the semester, and I think it finally started to hit me that I would really miss Thatcher.
May: I went through the temple for my own endownments. That was such a special day for both of us. I loved every minute of it. Actually I was pretty violently sick 3 days before...like throwing up and peeing out my bum (sorry for the visual). So I didn't really eat anything and my mom was all freaked out I would pass out during the temple ceremony.
Oh...and we got married...and moved to Texas, where it's hotter than Satan's balls....and gradumacated from EAC. Woot woot!!
June: May was pretty busy, and June was a nice month of relaxation. I got to be great friends with Jaynee, and I'm so grateful that we did become friends. Oh and I got a wicked tan. I guess that Texas sun and heat is good for something.
July: Fourth of July bbq with Edge, and more of Dan selling door to door. Still had a wicked tan. It was awesome.
August: Jaynee left Texas so she could hang out in Pima, and LEAVE ME...but mostly so that Izzee girl could come whenever she decided to. The A/C went out in the car. We were sweating our little hineys off anywhere we went. We had to replace an engine mount on the car...and then everything worked perfectly!! Seriously, we found the best mechanic that fixed our car for a screamin deal!! But on the brighter side of things, we did get GREAT gas mileage while the A/C was out. I left to come to Provo and started school the last week in August.
September: You sucked. I was alone. It was awful. But on the brighter side (again) I started watching Kason once a week while Jami was at institute, and that was actually pretty fun. He definitely kept me on my toes. I also had class with Caitlin twice a week, and that was always entertaining. Then Dan came home!!! Woo hoo!! HAPPY HAPPY DAY!!!
October: General Conference was awesome! Loved it. Halloween was awesome at Jeni's house! Oh and I found out I got into the nursing program at BYU!!
November: Thanksgiving!! It was so good to see my family again. They came up for Thanksgiving and we had it with the Kimball side of the family. Black Friday shopping...at 10am. So much better than 4am.
December: The long (actually short) haul to finals. Finals. Shoot me. School's out!! And our very first Christmas together. I still have to blog about that. It was awesome though. I love it. And tonight is New Years Eve. Pretty excited about that!!
2011 has been wonderful. I learned a lot about myself as a person, and as a friend, especially adapting to the marriage relationship. It's been a learning experience, but an enjoyable and exciting one. And it can only up from here.
February: Things got pretty serious between Dan and I. We knew we were going to get married, just not when or any of those other minor details. I also applied to BYU. It was pretty much the only option I had left. ASU's nursing program was just a numbers game, and I couldn't count on that. So I applied.
March: We got engaged!!! That's right! We were getting married. Then commenced the insufferable wedding planning. Just kidding, it really wasn't bad, mostly because I didn't care. Sorry Mom!! We went wedding dress shopping over spring break and found the perfect dress!
April: I found out I got into BYU...so after Texas we were headed to Provo. School was winding down for the semester, and I think it finally started to hit me that I would really miss Thatcher.
May: I went through the temple for my own endownments. That was such a special day for both of us. I loved every minute of it. Actually I was pretty violently sick 3 days before...like throwing up and peeing out my bum (sorry for the visual). So I didn't really eat anything and my mom was all freaked out I would pass out during the temple ceremony.
Oh...and we got married...and moved to Texas, where it's hotter than Satan's balls....and gradumacated from EAC. Woot woot!!
June: May was pretty busy, and June was a nice month of relaxation. I got to be great friends with Jaynee, and I'm so grateful that we did become friends. Oh and I got a wicked tan. I guess that Texas sun and heat is good for something.
July: Fourth of July bbq with Edge, and more of Dan selling door to door. Still had a wicked tan. It was awesome.
August: Jaynee left Texas so she could hang out in Pima, and LEAVE ME...but mostly so that Izzee girl could come whenever she decided to. The A/C went out in the car. We were sweating our little hineys off anywhere we went. We had to replace an engine mount on the car...and then everything worked perfectly!! Seriously, we found the best mechanic that fixed our car for a screamin deal!! But on the brighter side of things, we did get GREAT gas mileage while the A/C was out. I left to come to Provo and started school the last week in August.
September: You sucked. I was alone. It was awful. But on the brighter side (again) I started watching Kason once a week while Jami was at institute, and that was actually pretty fun. He definitely kept me on my toes. I also had class with Caitlin twice a week, and that was always entertaining. Then Dan came home!!! Woo hoo!! HAPPY HAPPY DAY!!!
October: General Conference was awesome! Loved it. Halloween was awesome at Jeni's house! Oh and I found out I got into the nursing program at BYU!!
November: Thanksgiving!! It was so good to see my family again. They came up for Thanksgiving and we had it with the Kimball side of the family. Black Friday shopping...at 10am. So much better than 4am.
December: The long (actually short) haul to finals. Finals. Shoot me. School's out!! And our very first Christmas together. I still have to blog about that. It was awesome though. I love it. And tonight is New Years Eve. Pretty excited about that!!
2011 has been wonderful. I learned a lot about myself as a person, and as a friend, especially adapting to the marriage relationship. It's been a learning experience, but an enjoyable and exciting one. And it can only up from here.
Saturday, July 2, 2011
The Finer Things in Life
Here's some pictures of a couple of things that we've done/have happened since being here in Texas. I've vowed to take more pictures and I'm doing alright so far...could be better...but also could be a lot worse. Hopefully we'll have a good amount from this coming weekend. STOKED.
Exhibit A: Dan's black eye. Get this: It's from a belly flop. For correlation that morning, they did a bunch of water activity/swimming type contests. At least he won the belly flop contest right? This was taken maybe 30 minutes after he got back from correlation meeting.
Exhibit B: Green Mesquite BBQ in downtown Austin. So freaking delicious. We shared the bbq for four with Jaynee and Sean and it was fabulous! So much food, but so good! We definitely didn't leave hungry.
Exhibit C: DISHES!!! I got the package from my mom probably a month ago and a few days later, went to BBB and got my dishes!! I can't tell you how happy I was. Then the place mats were only $0.99 each! Score!!
Exhibit D: We made homemade pizza for dinner last Saturday night. Kudos to Sister Bale for the recipe for the dough (thank you!). Here's the pizza cookin away!
The finished product!!
Exhibit E: My sexy husband in a cute apron I got for my bridal shower from Jacie Ames!
Exhibit F: These are the kinds of eggs we buy. Mostly because I'm too cheap to by the 18 pack from Walmart when I can save a dollar and get them from Costco.
Exhibit G: So, one of the tendons in my leg has been super sore lately. It's on the inside of my leg right behind my knee. Well I'm not an expert physical therapist or anything, but I know that that's not supposed to hurt. I'd been stretching before and after working out and even taking it a little easier on the bikes and elliptical. Both Dan and my mom told me to ice and heat it. So I did. When I stuck the towel in the microwave to warm it up, this is what happened.
I still don't know why it did that. But it came out of the microwave smoking and everything. Scary business. It must have had something on it, but seriously, that was the last thing I expected. Note to self: just throw it in the dryer next time.
And last but not least, this video is making me laugh hysterically right now. It's not like it's the first time I've seen it either. It's just really funny at the moment.
peace and blessings. Peace and Blessings.
Exhibit A: Dan's black eye. Get this: It's from a belly flop. For correlation that morning, they did a bunch of water activity/swimming type contests. At least he won the belly flop contest right? This was taken maybe 30 minutes after he got back from correlation meeting.
Exhibit B: Green Mesquite BBQ in downtown Austin. So freaking delicious. We shared the bbq for four with Jaynee and Sean and it was fabulous! So much food, but so good! We definitely didn't leave hungry.
Exhibit C: DISHES!!! I got the package from my mom probably a month ago and a few days later, went to BBB and got my dishes!! I can't tell you how happy I was. Then the place mats were only $0.99 each! Score!!
Exhibit D: We made homemade pizza for dinner last Saturday night. Kudos to Sister Bale for the recipe for the dough (thank you!). Here's the pizza cookin away!
The finished product!!
We each had 2 pieces and we were full. I think it's pretty safe to say neither of us can pack it down like we used to...well Dan still can. Not me. But hey, I'm not complaining.
Exhibit E: My sexy husband in a cute apron I got for my bridal shower from Jacie Ames!
Exhibit F: These are the kinds of eggs we buy. Mostly because I'm too cheap to by the 18 pack from Walmart when I can save a dollar and get them from Costco.
Exhibit G: So, one of the tendons in my leg has been super sore lately. It's on the inside of my leg right behind my knee. Well I'm not an expert physical therapist or anything, but I know that that's not supposed to hurt. I'd been stretching before and after working out and even taking it a little easier on the bikes and elliptical. Both Dan and my mom told me to ice and heat it. So I did. When I stuck the towel in the microwave to warm it up, this is what happened.
I still don't know why it did that. But it came out of the microwave smoking and everything. Scary business. It must have had something on it, but seriously, that was the last thing I expected. Note to self: just throw it in the dryer next time.
And last but not least, this video is making me laugh hysterically right now. It's not like it's the first time I've seen it either. It's just really funny at the moment.
peace and blessings. Peace and Blessings.
Why am I incredible?
Almost a week ago, the lesson we had in Relief Society was titled "LDS Women Are Incredible!" The talk was given in April 2011 general conference by Quentin L. Cook. You can read the talk for yourself here.
I posted a little about it earlier this week and I was rereading through the last few posts I've written (sometimes it's interesting to read back and remember exactly what you were feeling or that experience that you're writing about) and as of late, they've been very "complainy." I know that's not a word, but just roll with it.
I was thinking about the question that the teacher asked each of us at the beginning of the lesson: Why are YOU incredible? She had us write it down on a piece of paper. Well I couldn't think of anything in the moment. That's always an awkward feeling because I don't want to brag or anything, and I'm totally not compliment fishing or anything, I just couldn't really think of anything about myself that could be classified as "incredible." I mean I can do stuff, and I have talents, and I know I'm a daughter of God, so don't think I'm depreciating my self-worth or anything like that, but in the moment, I just couldn't think of anything that would be incredible to someone about me. And that was exactly the problem I was having.
So this card has been sitting in my bedside table drawer with my scriptures and it's been on my mind all week. Reading through my posts yesterday, I came upon the day I had a complete breakdown that it's not looking like I'll be with Dan for the first month of school. I remembered that day and all the emotions and just the complete lack of self control I felt because I couldn't keep myself together. I say "I remember" like it was ages ago, but really it was just earlier this week. Anyway, I usually have pretty good emotional self control. I can keep myself together pretty well, but for some reason that day, I couldn't do it. And it honestly felt like I was failing myself because all the heartbreak and the emotion was spilling over and I couldn't keep it in and deal with it on my own.
I still remember the surprise I felt when I got Kristi's text. And that's when it hit me what I could write on that card for why I am incredible.
I am incredible because I am strong. I can do this. I can do anything, whatever I set my mind to. I can do it. I guess sometimes, you just can't pull yourself out of the rut long enough to see that so it takes someone else recognizing that in you to help you see it. That's what Kristi did for me. She is such a strong person. I don't know her that well, but we've become good friends and some of the trials she's been asked to face are ones that I know I would never make it through. She's so strong and hearing that come from her telling me that I'm strong is a HUGE compliment.
I was going to blog yesterday, but I wasn't in the chipperest of moods, so I decided against it. I've been such a downer lately! Ugh I hate it, because I'd like to think I'm usually a pretty happy and upbeat person, but yesterday I just wasn't in it. I've been thinking and keeping a list (that sounds so pathetic) of all the things I want to blog about, whether it's something I've seen on someone else's blog that's really thought provoking or what have you. But last week, I was with some of the other wives and we were supposed to be watching a movie and ended up talking from 3 till 9 when our husbands got home! I really didn't think we'd all have that much to say, haha but we're girls so of course we do!
Anyway, one of the wives made the comment that someone had told her she needed to toughen up and stop complaining about her trials because there are other people that are going through worse things than that. Her reply was no...that she's allowed to complain about her trials because they're hers, not anyone elses. Just for her.
Not that I think everyone needs to be complaining about every little thing that goes wrong in their lives, but sometimes I think we too often don't express our feelings and emotion and just bottle them up because we don't want to be told that we shouldn't be complaining because there's someone else in the world that has it worse off than we do. I think repressing that emotion and not letting it out sometimes causes us to break, to fall apart, and to just lose it one day. I was reading a post from SDL and he was talking about how he's been told his whole life to grow a thicker skin and he's finally refusing to, because feeling is human. On that same note, I think that complaining and the whole emotion that comes with facing that trial is human. We shouldn't feel the need to repress that all the time. I know I'm probably the worst at this, but I'm going to start trying to express myself a little better. Maybe then these breakdowns will be MUCH MUCH fewer and farther between.
I am incredible because I am strong and because I can feel.
I posted a little about it earlier this week and I was rereading through the last few posts I've written (sometimes it's interesting to read back and remember exactly what you were feeling or that experience that you're writing about) and as of late, they've been very "complainy." I know that's not a word, but just roll with it.
I was thinking about the question that the teacher asked each of us at the beginning of the lesson: Why are YOU incredible? She had us write it down on a piece of paper. Well I couldn't think of anything in the moment. That's always an awkward feeling because I don't want to brag or anything, and I'm totally not compliment fishing or anything, I just couldn't really think of anything about myself that could be classified as "incredible." I mean I can do stuff, and I have talents, and I know I'm a daughter of God, so don't think I'm depreciating my self-worth or anything like that, but in the moment, I just couldn't think of anything that would be incredible to someone about me. And that was exactly the problem I was having.
So this card has been sitting in my bedside table drawer with my scriptures and it's been on my mind all week. Reading through my posts yesterday, I came upon the day I had a complete breakdown that it's not looking like I'll be with Dan for the first month of school. I remembered that day and all the emotions and just the complete lack of self control I felt because I couldn't keep myself together. I say "I remember" like it was ages ago, but really it was just earlier this week. Anyway, I usually have pretty good emotional self control. I can keep myself together pretty well, but for some reason that day, I couldn't do it. And it honestly felt like I was failing myself because all the heartbreak and the emotion was spilling over and I couldn't keep it in and deal with it on my own.
I still remember the surprise I felt when I got Kristi's text. And that's when it hit me what I could write on that card for why I am incredible.
I am incredible because I am strong. I can do this. I can do anything, whatever I set my mind to. I can do it. I guess sometimes, you just can't pull yourself out of the rut long enough to see that so it takes someone else recognizing that in you to help you see it. That's what Kristi did for me. She is such a strong person. I don't know her that well, but we've become good friends and some of the trials she's been asked to face are ones that I know I would never make it through. She's so strong and hearing that come from her telling me that I'm strong is a HUGE compliment.
I was going to blog yesterday, but I wasn't in the chipperest of moods, so I decided against it. I've been such a downer lately! Ugh I hate it, because I'd like to think I'm usually a pretty happy and upbeat person, but yesterday I just wasn't in it. I've been thinking and keeping a list (that sounds so pathetic) of all the things I want to blog about, whether it's something I've seen on someone else's blog that's really thought provoking or what have you. But last week, I was with some of the other wives and we were supposed to be watching a movie and ended up talking from 3 till 9 when our husbands got home! I really didn't think we'd all have that much to say, haha but we're girls so of course we do!
Anyway, one of the wives made the comment that someone had told her she needed to toughen up and stop complaining about her trials because there are other people that are going through worse things than that. Her reply was no...that she's allowed to complain about her trials because they're hers, not anyone elses. Just for her.
Not that I think everyone needs to be complaining about every little thing that goes wrong in their lives, but sometimes I think we too often don't express our feelings and emotion and just bottle them up because we don't want to be told that we shouldn't be complaining because there's someone else in the world that has it worse off than we do. I think repressing that emotion and not letting it out sometimes causes us to break, to fall apart, and to just lose it one day. I was reading a post from SDL and he was talking about how he's been told his whole life to grow a thicker skin and he's finally refusing to, because feeling is human. On that same note, I think that complaining and the whole emotion that comes with facing that trial is human. We shouldn't feel the need to repress that all the time. I know I'm probably the worst at this, but I'm going to start trying to express myself a little better. Maybe then these breakdowns will be MUCH MUCH fewer and farther between.
I am incredible because I am strong and because I can feel.
Thursday, June 2, 2011
I get to be an aunt!!! AGAIN!
So we got a phone call around 11 last night and at first Dan ignored it. Seriously who calls that late anyway? Then your mind starts going through the possibilities, what if it's an emergency or someone's hurt? The usual. Anyway, it was Matt, Dan's older brother. He called to tell us that his wife is pregnant!! Oh man we were soo excited! So whenever that baby is born, we're definitely going to be making a trip down to Thatcher to see him/her. I'm just so excited for them!
Yesterday, I went to the pool with Maria and her boys just for a little bit. Mason, the middle one, wanted to be a race car. So we were zooming around the pool and making crazy turns. It was actually quite fun. Then, out of no where Mason asked "What's that?" pointing at my chest area...more specifically the cleavage. Right off the bat, I knew exactly what he was talking about, but you can't admit that to a 3 year old! Trying to distract him I pointed to the tie that's in the middle of my suit and asked if that's what he was talking about. Of course he said no. Now things were just awkward because he pointed again and said "THAT!" So resolved to not tell him what "that" was, after all, I'm not his mom and I just don't think she'd appreciate me educating him on what "that" was. Anyway, I just told him that I didn't know. Crap. Lying to a 3 year old. That's gonna go over real well when it's all said and done.
Long story short: I get to be an aunt again soon!! And Mason is just the funniest little guy ever.
Hopefully the package my mom is sending me comes today. I really want to go get my dishes from BBB!! That's pathetic really, that I'm excited about dishes. Oh geez. Whatever shall I do?!
Yesterday, I went to the pool with Maria and her boys just for a little bit. Mason, the middle one, wanted to be a race car. So we were zooming around the pool and making crazy turns. It was actually quite fun. Then, out of no where Mason asked "What's that?" pointing at my chest area...more specifically the cleavage. Right off the bat, I knew exactly what he was talking about, but you can't admit that to a 3 year old! Trying to distract him I pointed to the tie that's in the middle of my suit and asked if that's what he was talking about. Of course he said no. Now things were just awkward because he pointed again and said "THAT!" So resolved to not tell him what "that" was, after all, I'm not his mom and I just don't think she'd appreciate me educating him on what "that" was. Anyway, I just told him that I didn't know. Crap. Lying to a 3 year old. That's gonna go over real well when it's all said and done.
Long story short: I get to be an aunt again soon!! And Mason is just the funniest little guy ever.
Hopefully the package my mom is sending me comes today. I really want to go get my dishes from BBB!! That's pathetic really, that I'm excited about dishes. Oh geez. Whatever shall I do?!
Saturday, May 28, 2011
The happenin's in Texassss
So let's see...where to start where to start. Well first things first. This is my cute little apartment. Now that it actually has furniture is actually quite cute and I really love it.
This is the living room/dining room area
And this is the bedroom and our cute bedspread!! (I should probably stop calling stuff cute. I just don't think Dan would quite appreciate anything being called cute! Haha).
And seriously my FAVORITE part: the washer and dryer!! In my own apartment!! No more laundromats!
Oh and I like a total nerd took pictures of our very first homecooked meal together!!
Beef stroganoff on a baked potato with peas. My mouth is watering just thinking about it!!
And because I made a resolution to take more pictures, I decided that watching Dan shave was just super funny so I took pictures of him the whole time and tried to repress the laughter so he wouldn't cut himself, but to no avail. I laughed, but he didn't cut himself! Score!!
I think he's pretty much the cutest boy in the entire world!!! And I just love him!
So what I was really going to blog about was that I'm definitely practiced my homemaker/housewife skills today! I have been seriously missing PB&J's for the last couple of weeks that we've been in Texas because I forgot to bring some jam, and I've been so spoiled my whole life with my mom making it homemade that store bought is just nasty to me. So Jaynee, Kristi and I made homemade strawberry jam today! Let me tell you, I cannot wait till it's ready to be eaten because it already tastes good right now, so it will taste even better when it's all set up and delicious!
I'd say it's been a pretty successful day. Dan's coming home early tonight and we're making dinner together!! I'm so excited, if you couldn't tell by the exclamation points. It's date night in. Rented Country Strong to watch afterwards. Definitely excited.
OHHH and one last thing, I sent this picture to my mom and she just laughed. I just can't quite figure out why Dan's not gaining weight when I make him sandwiches like this every day. It actually makes me laugh a lot. Granted he is out walking around all day long, but still. If it was me...I'd be blowing up like a freaking balloon.
Walk me down the middle...let the whole world know you belong to me. <3
This is the living room/dining room area
And this is the bedroom and our cute bedspread!! (I should probably stop calling stuff cute. I just don't think Dan would quite appreciate anything being called cute! Haha).
And seriously my FAVORITE part: the washer and dryer!! In my own apartment!! No more laundromats!
Oh and I like a total nerd took pictures of our very first homecooked meal together!!
Beef stroganoff on a baked potato with peas. My mouth is watering just thinking about it!!
And because I made a resolution to take more pictures, I decided that watching Dan shave was just super funny so I took pictures of him the whole time and tried to repress the laughter so he wouldn't cut himself, but to no avail. I laughed, but he didn't cut himself! Score!!
I think he's pretty much the cutest boy in the entire world!!! And I just love him!
So what I was really going to blog about was that I'm definitely practiced my homemaker/housewife skills today! I have been seriously missing PB&J's for the last couple of weeks that we've been in Texas because I forgot to bring some jam, and I've been so spoiled my whole life with my mom making it homemade that store bought is just nasty to me. So Jaynee, Kristi and I made homemade strawberry jam today! Let me tell you, I cannot wait till it's ready to be eaten because it already tastes good right now, so it will taste even better when it's all set up and delicious!
I'd say it's been a pretty successful day. Dan's coming home early tonight and we're making dinner together!! I'm so excited, if you couldn't tell by the exclamation points. It's date night in. Rented Country Strong to watch afterwards. Definitely excited.
OHHH and one last thing, I sent this picture to my mom and she just laughed. I just can't quite figure out why Dan's not gaining weight when I make him sandwiches like this every day. It actually makes me laugh a lot. Granted he is out walking around all day long, but still. If it was me...I'd be blowing up like a freaking balloon.
Walk me down the middle...let the whole world know you belong to me. <3
Friday, April 8, 2011
Stop trying to find my dirty underwear
So I had done my laundry (the whites) earlier yesterday and they were on my bed in a pile because I had pulled them out of the laundry and then jumped in the shower--we had just gotten back from an adventure down the canal. So my delicates weren't on parade, but they were sitting rolled up in my sheets, in a pile, on my bed.
Dan and I were sitting on my bed and I was folding the shirts and keeping the delicates in a secretive pile under my pillowcase. WELL...Dan, lovely Dan, starts pulling out the rest of my laundry from being twisted up in the sheets! My underwear was getting PULLED OUT FROM HIDING!! At first, he was embarrassed and said he didn't mean to do it...well then he started doing it just to mess around with me!
So I yelled at him to stop trying to find my dirty underwear! What's even funnier was that there were a few people over that were sitting in our living room....so they probably heard me. Because he refused to quit bugging me, I grabbed a handful and threw it at him. Haha. It was pretty funny...mostly because he was so shocked.
Earlier in the evening yesterday, we were at a meeting for EDGE, the company Dan is working for this summer. Kristi King was trying to use her husband, Shannon, as a footrest. Shannon said, "Dan and I do not have the same color of skin." Kristi, after pondering this for a second, responds, "He's not black!" Oh man...we were laughing so freaking hard. Haha they're hilarious.
This morning, Jacie came over and was talking to Abbie and I for a little bit. Tayler came by to see her and say hello, and Tayler saw Abbie's jeans hanging dry over the banister. He made the comment that whoever's jeans those were had no butt. So Jacie came back into our apartment and told us what he said. Abbie said she was offended. Then Jacie startes yelling out the window at him Tayler!!! TAYLER!!! (I said Jacie maybe if you yell louder he'll hear you) TAYLER!!!!!!!!! Well...he heard her. Haha.
She said, and I quote: Tayler! Abbie is offended you said she has no butt! He shrugged his shoulders.
Pretty much, Jacie Ames is hilarious. Abbie...is just Abbie. and... Daniel Haban is the love of my life. End of story.
Great quote I heard yesterday:
Attitude is a little thing that makes a big difference. --Winston Churchill
Dan and I were sitting on my bed and I was folding the shirts and keeping the delicates in a secretive pile under my pillowcase. WELL...Dan, lovely Dan, starts pulling out the rest of my laundry from being twisted up in the sheets! My underwear was getting PULLED OUT FROM HIDING!! At first, he was embarrassed and said he didn't mean to do it...well then he started doing it just to mess around with me!
So I yelled at him to stop trying to find my dirty underwear! What's even funnier was that there were a few people over that were sitting in our living room....so they probably heard me. Because he refused to quit bugging me, I grabbed a handful and threw it at him. Haha. It was pretty funny...mostly because he was so shocked.
Earlier in the evening yesterday, we were at a meeting for EDGE, the company Dan is working for this summer. Kristi King was trying to use her husband, Shannon, as a footrest. Shannon said, "Dan and I do not have the same color of skin." Kristi, after pondering this for a second, responds, "He's not black!" Oh man...we were laughing so freaking hard. Haha they're hilarious.
This morning, Jacie came over and was talking to Abbie and I for a little bit. Tayler came by to see her and say hello, and Tayler saw Abbie's jeans hanging dry over the banister. He made the comment that whoever's jeans those were had no butt. So Jacie came back into our apartment and told us what he said. Abbie said she was offended. Then Jacie startes yelling out the window at him Tayler!!! TAYLER!!! (I said Jacie maybe if you yell louder he'll hear you) TAYLER!!!!!!!!! Well...he heard her. Haha.
She said, and I quote: Tayler! Abbie is offended you said she has no butt! He shrugged his shoulders.
Pretty much, Jacie Ames is hilarious. Abbie...is just Abbie. and... Daniel Haban is the love of my life. End of story.
Great quote I heard yesterday:
Attitude is a little thing that makes a big difference. --Winston Churchill
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