If you take a look around you, how many people do you see that have suffered or are currently suffering through a magnanomous (sp?) trial? Could you pick them out of the crowd? Even a circle of acquaintances that you briefly chat about nothing with on a pretty regular basis? My guess...probably not.
I've been wanted to blog about this title ever since it slapped me upside the head while listening to Sugarland one day (leave it to Jennifer Nettles to slap you silly with her bomb lyrics). So I've been thinking and noticing just around me immediately who has "scars." Bear with me on this one, it's a little far fetched, but just go with it.
I can't help but notice how many people have lost someone close to them--like as in immediate family close to them. Fortunately for me, I haven't had to go through that, but seeing all the people around me and their tragic stories, I'm scared outta my mind.
It's right in my own family. My husband lost his brother, and likewise my sister in law lost her husband, and my nephew lost his dad. We watch Kason every Wednesday so Jami can go to her institute class (which major props! I'm pretty sure I only go to my religion classes 1/3 of the time because I actually get a grade). Don't get me wrong, I love love love watching him and getting to play with him every week!! It's probably one of the highlights of our week (mostly because it gives me so much hope and happiness to look forward to Dan being a father to our own kids one day). I love being an aunt! It's so fun and exciting! But I can't help but wonder what life would be like for them today if Kam were still here. Heck, I wonder how different my own life would be. Would we have gotten along? Would Jami and Kason even be in Utah? Probably not.
I had a funny thought the other day--and by funny I don't mean literally funny like haha, but just interesting. Dan and I were talking about his friend Clayton (who also passed away) and different memories that Dan and his friends have with him. I just had this thought, and I looked up at that great big beautiful blue sky and thought to myself, "I can't wait to meet you." I have decided I like talking to Dan about Kam, and I love the way he lights up when he is talking about Kam. It makes me feel like I kind of know my other brother. I hope that when that day comes and I finally do get to meet him, I'll recognize him from all the stories that I've heard.
Anyway, back to scars, they're everywhere, and I feel like as a person, we're always trying to hide them. We don't want people to know that we're broken, or bleeding, or falling apart. We just don't. I don't know if that's the pride and arrogance of us as human beings coming out, or it's just we don't want people to know how badly we're really hurting inside, and that as long as we keep a brave face on a play the part, no one will ever know and we can silently hurt and attempt to put ourselves back together.
I have a good friend, in fact she's probably one of my best friends, that I had the priviledge to live with this last year in college. We'd always been "friends"-ish before, we'd played on the same softball team for a year or two, and she was dating and guy in my ward. So I saw her around. Anyway, she came down to Thatcher last year, and lived with me! It was by far one of the best experiences of my life. She's that friend that's not afraid to call it like it is and tell you to suck it up (and I needed that quite frequently). She's also that friend that has taught me so much about the importance of the gospel in keeping your life together amidst great tragedies.
She lost her brother in a terrible accident. I remember when it happened that I actually got a text from her boyfriend asking everyone to pray for Ben. Fast forward 2 years or so, and I can't tell you how many conversations we've had that lasted way into the small hours of the morning about all these scars on our lives. As we got to be better friends, I learned more about the scars she carries, and I've developed a great love and admiration for her, and anyone that has had a similar situation, the one who does keep going, even if it's just going through the motions for a while, but doesn't let that defeat them.
I can't even begin to imagine what my life would be like right now without my brother. He has so much life and love and spirit in him and it's always bringing a smile to my face. I cannot wait to see him in just a few weeks, when my family is here for Thanksgiving.
But not to dwell on that, I really would like to know why we are always striving to hide these scars we carry? Everyone has them, and everyone will get at least one or two more by the time this life is over for each of us. I just hope and pray that when you see someone on the street, don't judge them by their appearance or their attitude or their demeanor. Everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle. So be kinder than necessary, and give everyone the benefit of the doubt. Trust me, one day, you'll need that benefit when your scars hit you.
Showing posts with label Abbie. Show all posts
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Wednesday, November 9, 2011
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
The funnies.
So there were two funnies in the last couple of days that I just feel the need to share. Mostly because they make me laugh when I think about them.
First of all, this weekend, Dan and I went home and were hanging out with my family. We were watching Bones (which by the way is a dang good show!) and the episode was about some guys supposedly getting killed by the chupacabra. I'm pretty sure Abbie is the only one who will appreciate that, but I was laughing pretty dang hard because that was our nick name for Guacamole for a while when he was being a major jerk face. So...it just made me laugh...and shake my head...a lot.
Second of all, yesterday Abbie asked me to turn in her English paper for her because she's in the valley for a couple of days and I told her yes of course! So I'm looking for this folder that she wants it put in to go turn in. I'm search the shelf, practically pulling everything off (and Abbie if you're reading this, I put it all back...no worries!) and I couldn't find it! So I called her and she was telling me what it looked like. Brown blue and green stripes. Well I still couldn't find it. So I grabbed a different one and turned in her paper. Well I get home, sit down on my bed, and you're never going to guess what is sitting on the floor right by my bed. Yepp the folder! Dan had used it the night before when he was writing out a work out plan! It was one of those moments that you just laugh but you're like YOU'VE GOT TO BE KIDDING ME! Story of my life.
I'm noticing a pattern...these funnies usually happen when Abbie is around or in mind. POINT OF THE STORY: Abbie come home!!!!! Haha.
Let's end on a funny.
What did the cannibal get when he came home late?
The Cold Shoulder!
Bahahahahahahah....
First of all, this weekend, Dan and I went home and were hanging out with my family. We were watching Bones (which by the way is a dang good show!) and the episode was about some guys supposedly getting killed by the chupacabra. I'm pretty sure Abbie is the only one who will appreciate that, but I was laughing pretty dang hard because that was our nick name for Guacamole for a while when he was being a major jerk face. So...it just made me laugh...and shake my head...a lot.
Second of all, yesterday Abbie asked me to turn in her English paper for her because she's in the valley for a couple of days and I told her yes of course! So I'm looking for this folder that she wants it put in to go turn in. I'm search the shelf, practically pulling everything off (and Abbie if you're reading this, I put it all back...no worries!) and I couldn't find it! So I called her and she was telling me what it looked like. Brown blue and green stripes. Well I still couldn't find it. So I grabbed a different one and turned in her paper. Well I get home, sit down on my bed, and you're never going to guess what is sitting on the floor right by my bed. Yepp the folder! Dan had used it the night before when he was writing out a work out plan! It was one of those moments that you just laugh but you're like YOU'VE GOT TO BE KIDDING ME! Story of my life.
I'm noticing a pattern...these funnies usually happen when Abbie is around or in mind. POINT OF THE STORY: Abbie come home!!!!! Haha.
Let's end on a funny.
What did the cannibal get when he came home late?
The Cold Shoulder!
Bahahahahahahah....
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
The Expert Tanner
Meet Abbie. She is quite the expert when it comes to tanning, especially when she used a 7th dimension bronzer. Oh did I forget to mention she can't use bronzers because she doesn't rub it in all the way?
Exhibit A:
I hope she doesn't hate me for this. But I did tell her I was going to do it.
So Abbs went tanning today and I went along for the ride. She comes out afterwards and is marching...yes marching...straight for the door and she has the funniest look on her face. Well the first thing I noticed was how dark her legs were! DANGGGG GIRL! Then I noticed that she was red. I was dying laughing the whole way home. But man does that stuff work. So if you're looking for a great tanning lotion, use the 7th dimension bronzer with tingley stuff and pink blush stuff.
Ps. She is just very tan now. The reddness and splotchiness have faded...and she looks pretty even now. Lucky duck. Maybe I should use that stuff next time.
Pss. And one more thing. We started the biggest loser contest between our group of friends today. We all took measurements and weighed ourselves and we have the next 4 weeks to drop a few pounds. Shouldn't be too hard to find motivation. After all, I am to be "wedded" as Abbie would say, in exactly one month from today. Don't worry, I'm not excited or anything.
Exhibit A:
I hope she doesn't hate me for this. But I did tell her I was going to do it.
So Abbs went tanning today and I went along for the ride. She comes out afterwards and is marching...yes marching...straight for the door and she has the funniest look on her face. Well the first thing I noticed was how dark her legs were! DANGGGG GIRL! Then I noticed that she was red. I was dying laughing the whole way home. But man does that stuff work. So if you're looking for a great tanning lotion, use the 7th dimension bronzer with tingley stuff and pink blush stuff.
Ps. She is just very tan now. The reddness and splotchiness have faded...and she looks pretty even now. Lucky duck. Maybe I should use that stuff next time.
Pss. And one more thing. We started the biggest loser contest between our group of friends today. We all took measurements and weighed ourselves and we have the next 4 weeks to drop a few pounds. Shouldn't be too hard to find motivation. After all, I am to be "wedded" as Abbie would say, in exactly one month from today. Don't worry, I'm not excited or anything.
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Collectively...we're pretty experienced
Three things in mind today...I'll give you short preview so you don't have to read the whole thing. 1. Abbie came home Friday freaking out about hcg. 2. my roommates and I had an interesting conversation about sex. 3. Dan is the greatest thing that ever happened to me.
Abbie came home freaking out about hcg on Friday after her biology class. She's practically in a panic that she could potentially not have children because hcg can shut down your repo system. It was seriously hilarious because I was just waiting for something to come out saying that hcg was bad for you in some way, because in reality, anything that is that great and that much of a miracle weight loss drug...there has to be some sort of negative effect. Anyway, off my soap box, it was hilarious.
Sunday night, Nicole made the comment that Hope and Jodi told her to never get glow in the dark condoms because "then you see it coming at you swinging." Anyway, needless to say, the rest of the conversation was pretty freaking hilarious. It went all over the place...and it was so funny. We ended up sharing little bits of advice we've heard about what to do or not to do. Collectively...you'd think we're all pretty experienced.
So lastly, and I'm sorry if you don't want to read lovey dovey stuff...you should probably stop now and call this reading done. I love Dan. He was made for me. Yesterday was just not a good day, and I could blame it on a lot of things (namely birth control, $$ stress, and just general wedding planning stress) but that's not the point. The point is I was at my breaking point. I got a phone call from my mom. She told me my dress had gotten shipped to the wrong address, so they were making a new one and it wouldn't make it on time for my wedding. (Shit). Then she told me she was getting it made by someone else and it would be at my house by the end of the month. It was the point that it spilled over. I've been looking forward to trying it on for at least a couple of days now. I just started crying in the institute. I didn't even know what to do, because every little thing I cried harder. Dan finished filling out his home teaching reports and we came back to my apartment. He wanted to watch Tangled, so we popped some popcorn, put the movie in my computer, watched it on my bed. Now this is just one reaffirmation that he was made for me. He watched the movie and I just snuggled up next to him and fell asleep. We didn't have to talk about why I am an emotional wreck and crying all the time, he just loves me anyway and lets me sleep.
As much as he'd probably like to know exactly what I'm feeling, sometimes you just can't talk about it. It's not that you don't want to, you just can't. Maybe I'm crazy and the only one that feels that way. But I love him.
Its funny, we actually got in a fight today about something dumb (well it seems super dumb now) but he was pretty peeved at me for throwing water at him before he went to class. So it was all of this back and forth and blows below the belt, but I realized that I'm getting married to the most amazing person that I've ever met in 31 days. And forgive me for going all gospel right now, but Satan's going to do everything to prevent that. So SCREW YOU SATAN!! I'm walking out of the temple doors on May 13th and there's nothing he can do to prevent that. This is my choice. And it's for forever.
Abbie came home freaking out about hcg on Friday after her biology class. She's practically in a panic that she could potentially not have children because hcg can shut down your repo system. It was seriously hilarious because I was just waiting for something to come out saying that hcg was bad for you in some way, because in reality, anything that is that great and that much of a miracle weight loss drug...there has to be some sort of negative effect. Anyway, off my soap box, it was hilarious.
Sunday night, Nicole made the comment that Hope and Jodi told her to never get glow in the dark condoms because "then you see it coming at you swinging." Anyway, needless to say, the rest of the conversation was pretty freaking hilarious. It went all over the place...and it was so funny. We ended up sharing little bits of advice we've heard about what to do or not to do. Collectively...you'd think we're all pretty experienced.
So lastly, and I'm sorry if you don't want to read lovey dovey stuff...you should probably stop now and call this reading done. I love Dan. He was made for me. Yesterday was just not a good day, and I could blame it on a lot of things (namely birth control, $$ stress, and just general wedding planning stress) but that's not the point. The point is I was at my breaking point. I got a phone call from my mom. She told me my dress had gotten shipped to the wrong address, so they were making a new one and it wouldn't make it on time for my wedding. (Shit). Then she told me she was getting it made by someone else and it would be at my house by the end of the month. It was the point that it spilled over. I've been looking forward to trying it on for at least a couple of days now. I just started crying in the institute. I didn't even know what to do, because every little thing I cried harder. Dan finished filling out his home teaching reports and we came back to my apartment. He wanted to watch Tangled, so we popped some popcorn, put the movie in my computer, watched it on my bed. Now this is just one reaffirmation that he was made for me. He watched the movie and I just snuggled up next to him and fell asleep. We didn't have to talk about why I am an emotional wreck and crying all the time, he just loves me anyway and lets me sleep.
As much as he'd probably like to know exactly what I'm feeling, sometimes you just can't talk about it. It's not that you don't want to, you just can't. Maybe I'm crazy and the only one that feels that way. But I love him.
Its funny, we actually got in a fight today about something dumb (well it seems super dumb now) but he was pretty peeved at me for throwing water at him before he went to class. So it was all of this back and forth and blows below the belt, but I realized that I'm getting married to the most amazing person that I've ever met in 31 days. And forgive me for going all gospel right now, but Satan's going to do everything to prevent that. So SCREW YOU SATAN!! I'm walking out of the temple doors on May 13th and there's nothing he can do to prevent that. This is my choice. And it's for forever.
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Well I've been afraid of changing
"...cause I've built my life around you. But time makes you bolder, children get older, and I'm getting older too."
Alright that doesn't really have anything to do with my blog post. Actually it has nothing to do with it, it was just the song that was playing when I started writing this...or rather thinking up what to write. As of late, I've been terrible about blogging. But lets look at the facts: 1. I'm not cute and married. 2. I don't have kids to tell funny stories about. and 3. Well life has been pretty entertaining lately, but I just don't have the time to sit down and write it all. (I'll probably wish I had one day...oh well).
So last night Dan and I were just talking about his brother and we don't really talk about it too much. I'm not uncomfortable asking him about it, but it makes me so sad because I think of my little brother (crap I'm crying already and I haven't even typed that much! Ahh I really hate being a girl sometimes) and just how much that would impact my life, how much I love that little man and how I have always looked forward to seeing him get the priesthood in a few years and then go on mission a few years after that and then getting married one day. I've always been excited to have one more sister!
Back on topic: the thought crossed my mind about being on the flip side of that situation and having that happen to your best friend or husband. I don't really know a whole lot about the situation and I've never met Dan's sister in law, but I just started crying last night. Its funny how the thought of losing someone makes you realize how much you can't live without them. I honestly don't know what I'd do without him. Yeah he's a pain in the butt sometimes and knows just how to push my buttons, but I wouldn't trade any of it for the world. The little stinker made me fall in love with him!
I was thinking about lots of people that I know and how much so many of them have had to deal with in their lives and not to compare my life and my trials with theirs, but for comparison's sake, my life has been relatively easy, which makes me absolutely terrified for what is ahead. I look at those people that have had to deal with a lot more than maybe they probably deserved, but they have come out on top, and they are some of the strongest people I know. I envy that strength just a little bit, in that they have it and could probably conquer the world with it if they wanted. I hope this is making sense, because it sounds pretty good in my head but might not be coming out so well.
I was reading my patriarchal blessing a few nights ago and it mentions that I've been blessed for the family I've been put into, and thinking about it just now makes me realize how truly blessed I am. I've never questioned whether or not I was loved, I've always known that my parents love each other (even though my sisters and I scream and yell THATS GROSS when they kiss each other). I've been truly and richly blessed in my life with perfect examples of hard work and love and making a marriage and a family work. My family is not perfect by any means, and I'm sure we could give some people and run for their money with how much we fight sometimes, but at the end of the day, I wouldn't doubt that we would kill for each other.
Nothing is ever going to be perfect in our lives, and there are always going to be trials. Life is never going to be easy, but it will always be worth it. I don't want to live a day without my best friend, but if that is what is asked of me one day, I hope that I can face fire and keep on fighting. I hope that I can always live worthy to go to the temple and feel the peace that it has to offer. I am so grateful for the blessings I've been given in the best roommates, especially Abbie. We get a long pretty dang good and I'm so glad that she wanted to live with me! She is so strong and is a perfect example of taking it each day at a time: some days you slip and other days you're on top of the world.
Anyway, that is all. Now that I'm looking at it, this starts off super depressing. Woops! Not what I meant to do at all. But at least it's out there and off my chest for a little while.
Off to the gym! Tootles :]
Some food for thought. Swish it around in your mouth and think about it:
"In the end, everything will be okay. If it's not okay, it's not the end."
Alright that doesn't really have anything to do with my blog post. Actually it has nothing to do with it, it was just the song that was playing when I started writing this...or rather thinking up what to write. As of late, I've been terrible about blogging. But lets look at the facts: 1. I'm not cute and married. 2. I don't have kids to tell funny stories about. and 3. Well life has been pretty entertaining lately, but I just don't have the time to sit down and write it all. (I'll probably wish I had one day...oh well).
So last night Dan and I were just talking about his brother and we don't really talk about it too much. I'm not uncomfortable asking him about it, but it makes me so sad because I think of my little brother (crap I'm crying already and I haven't even typed that much! Ahh I really hate being a girl sometimes) and just how much that would impact my life, how much I love that little man and how I have always looked forward to seeing him get the priesthood in a few years and then go on mission a few years after that and then getting married one day. I've always been excited to have one more sister!
Back on topic: the thought crossed my mind about being on the flip side of that situation and having that happen to your best friend or husband. I don't really know a whole lot about the situation and I've never met Dan's sister in law, but I just started crying last night. Its funny how the thought of losing someone makes you realize how much you can't live without them. I honestly don't know what I'd do without him. Yeah he's a pain in the butt sometimes and knows just how to push my buttons, but I wouldn't trade any of it for the world. The little stinker made me fall in love with him!
I was thinking about lots of people that I know and how much so many of them have had to deal with in their lives and not to compare my life and my trials with theirs, but for comparison's sake, my life has been relatively easy, which makes me absolutely terrified for what is ahead. I look at those people that have had to deal with a lot more than maybe they probably deserved, but they have come out on top, and they are some of the strongest people I know. I envy that strength just a little bit, in that they have it and could probably conquer the world with it if they wanted. I hope this is making sense, because it sounds pretty good in my head but might not be coming out so well.
I was reading my patriarchal blessing a few nights ago and it mentions that I've been blessed for the family I've been put into, and thinking about it just now makes me realize how truly blessed I am. I've never questioned whether or not I was loved, I've always known that my parents love each other (even though my sisters and I scream and yell THATS GROSS when they kiss each other). I've been truly and richly blessed in my life with perfect examples of hard work and love and making a marriage and a family work. My family is not perfect by any means, and I'm sure we could give some people and run for their money with how much we fight sometimes, but at the end of the day, I wouldn't doubt that we would kill for each other.
Nothing is ever going to be perfect in our lives, and there are always going to be trials. Life is never going to be easy, but it will always be worth it. I don't want to live a day without my best friend, but if that is what is asked of me one day, I hope that I can face fire and keep on fighting. I hope that I can always live worthy to go to the temple and feel the peace that it has to offer. I am so grateful for the blessings I've been given in the best roommates, especially Abbie. We get a long pretty dang good and I'm so glad that she wanted to live with me! She is so strong and is a perfect example of taking it each day at a time: some days you slip and other days you're on top of the world.
Anyway, that is all. Now that I'm looking at it, this starts off super depressing. Woops! Not what I meant to do at all. But at least it's out there and off my chest for a little while.
Off to the gym! Tootles :]
Some food for thought. Swish it around in your mouth and think about it:
"In the end, everything will be okay. If it's not okay, it's not the end."
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
There she goes...There she goes again...
Wow this was a freakin awesome weekend!! I mean, most of our weekends end up being pretty legit, but this one was SAWEET! Brief overview: Pizza and Ice Cream making date on Friday, Caves on Saturday, In-N-Out after the caves, Dan teaching church on Sunday, epic heist of a coveted DVD, classes on Monday, and the RAIN, FHE Monday night with Howie--it's not as bad as it sounds, and ending the night with my love. Woo!! I'm already excited about writing this! Let's get started!!
The date was super fun!! I'm glad I had Dan though...because the company wasn't exactly my favorite in the entire world. Alright, let's just be honest, they bug me...especially since one of them does not like me at all but puts on the super nice "oh how are you?!" face--psh like they actually care. Haha. Whatever. It was fun though making the pizza and putting all the toppings and stuff. Dan is pretty much a pro pizza maker! We played Just Dance on the wii while the pizza cooked and Dan and I won almost every time. It was probably the remote...haha who am I kidding...Dan and I are AMAZING dancers! After the pizza, we had homemade ice cream!! Nothing short of delicious! We went over to the institute to watch Despicable Me afterwards. It was the YSA activity for Friday night. If you haven't seen it, I'd totally recommend it.
After the movie, we all went over to Tiffany's house and had cake and ice cream for Jacquelyn's birthday. Then Kacey the Magnifico arrived!! She did some awesome magic tricks...and we're hiring her for Abbie's birthday for sure!
Saturday, we headed down to Tucson to go caving! Yes we were climbing through small passageways and ended up covered in dirt and crap all over ourselves. There was even a dog with a flashlight around his collar who followed us around for a little bit. We found one of the lakes that is in the cave and Rustin Jones, Jared Haymore, and Travis Catt all jumped in and were swimming around in there for a little bit. YUCK!! They said it felt pretty good actually, but I wasn't about ready to jump in stagnant water. Who the heck knows what is growing in there! We made it to the book this time!! All of us made it! Well except for Jared Haymore, Dan and Kendall Rapier. They decided to go off on their own adventure and got left behind. We signed their names anyway.
After we got out of the caves, we went to In-N-Out for dinner. Oh my goodness I forgot how much I love that place! It might have been because I was so hungry that anything honestly sounded good, but it was super yummy and made my tummy quite happy. On the drive back, Rustin mooned Tiffany's car as we passed them. As soon as we got off the off-ramp, we pulled over because Rustin had to pee. We drove a little ways up the road just to mess with him and we see this car pull up and just shine their lights on him. Turns out, it was Tiffany's car and they stayed there and were dancing for all the cars that passed them while waiting for us. Apparently they didn't realize that we'd passed them a LONG time before that. Haha.
Sunday morning, I went to Dan's ward because he was teaching combined Priesthood/Relief Society. His and Natalie's lesson was so good. I think my favorite part was when they talked about how important it is to be modest and morally clean. Natalie said that if a guy is trying to spend the night or is letting you spend the night, he's not respecting you as a daughter of God.
Sunday night, we may or may not have participated in the heist of a certain DVD. It's still up for debate as to whether we were active participants or not. If it did happen, it was quite thrilling, and Abbie and I certainly got a good work out from it when we ran back to our apartment.
Monday was the same old same. Except holy cow stressful! BYU application was due Feb 1 and I had to get so much crap done for it. I guess it doesn't really help that I'm a killer procrastinator so I was writing my essays in between my patho class and my sociology class. But hey it all got done and before 4 pm and that's all that counts. So I went to my writing class and peach is in that class, but get this: we don't even acknowledge each others existence. It's honestly quite irritating...and I'm not even sure why because it shouldn't bug me but it really does. OH it gets even better though...peach deleted me from facebook. BAHAHA I almost friend requested peach but then I thought better of it and decided who cares.
SIDE NOTE: it's been raining!! and blowing up a hellish storm. It's somewhat irritating and I had a super hard time getting out of bed this morning because I just wanted to stay curled up in my bed and read a book.
Monday night we went to FHE and learned about the 10 commandments and the little actions that go with it. So the guy that taught the lesson...well let's call him Howie. So Howie comes up and starts talking to me after FHE. We were eating dessert and everyone else was playing bump out. At the risk of sounding super conceited, he was definitely flirting it up with me asking all the questions: OH I didn't catch your name? How long have you been here? Blah blah blah. Well I immediated decided I had to nip this one in the butt fast so that I a. Don't lead him on. and b. could still potentially be friends--alright acquaintances--if I see him at church and stuff. So I noticed he had a sports med shirt on and asked him if he worked down in the training room at all. He answered yes and so I had a way to bring up Dan without being ridiculously obvious about it. The next part of the conversation goes as follows:
Me: Oh so you do you work down there (the training room) a lot?
Howie: Yeah I do!
Me: That's cool. So do you know Dan?!
H: Umm maybe?
Me: He's short and brown.
H: Oh yeah I know him, he's pretty cool, helps me out a lot.
Me: That's awesome! He's my boyfriend!
H: Oh your boyfriend?!
Me: Yeah!
H: Wow.....cool.
OHHH man I had to keep myself from laughing because it really was quite funny but sad at the same time. I didn't mean to be so cut and dry, but hey he'll thank me later when he doesn't have to waste time on me right?
I'd say it's been a pretty eventful weekend and it can only get better. Raegan is wearing a moo moo and looks like an old lady with stage make up on that she had to do in class. Point made. And now we are off to visit Hannah.
Making fettucini alfredo tonight for the roommates and my love. Hopefully this time I won't burn it...the distraction will be in class. ;] Well idk...Raegan might be a huge distraction right now...she's walking around with a big butt shake. Hahaha I love my roommates what can I say.
:] LOVE MY LIFE.
The date was super fun!! I'm glad I had Dan though...because the company wasn't exactly my favorite in the entire world. Alright, let's just be honest, they bug me...especially since one of them does not like me at all but puts on the super nice "oh how are you?!" face--psh like they actually care. Haha. Whatever. It was fun though making the pizza and putting all the toppings and stuff. Dan is pretty much a pro pizza maker! We played Just Dance on the wii while the pizza cooked and Dan and I won almost every time. It was probably the remote...haha who am I kidding...Dan and I are AMAZING dancers! After the pizza, we had homemade ice cream!! Nothing short of delicious! We went over to the institute to watch Despicable Me afterwards. It was the YSA activity for Friday night. If you haven't seen it, I'd totally recommend it.
After the movie, we all went over to Tiffany's house and had cake and ice cream for Jacquelyn's birthday. Then Kacey the Magnifico arrived!! She did some awesome magic tricks...and we're hiring her for Abbie's birthday for sure!
Saturday, we headed down to Tucson to go caving! Yes we were climbing through small passageways and ended up covered in dirt and crap all over ourselves. There was even a dog with a flashlight around his collar who followed us around for a little bit. We found one of the lakes that is in the cave and Rustin Jones, Jared Haymore, and Travis Catt all jumped in and were swimming around in there for a little bit. YUCK!! They said it felt pretty good actually, but I wasn't about ready to jump in stagnant water. Who the heck knows what is growing in there! We made it to the book this time!! All of us made it! Well except for Jared Haymore, Dan and Kendall Rapier. They decided to go off on their own adventure and got left behind. We signed their names anyway.
After we got out of the caves, we went to In-N-Out for dinner. Oh my goodness I forgot how much I love that place! It might have been because I was so hungry that anything honestly sounded good, but it was super yummy and made my tummy quite happy. On the drive back, Rustin mooned Tiffany's car as we passed them. As soon as we got off the off-ramp, we pulled over because Rustin had to pee. We drove a little ways up the road just to mess with him and we see this car pull up and just shine their lights on him. Turns out, it was Tiffany's car and they stayed there and were dancing for all the cars that passed them while waiting for us. Apparently they didn't realize that we'd passed them a LONG time before that. Haha.
Sunday morning, I went to Dan's ward because he was teaching combined Priesthood/Relief Society. His and Natalie's lesson was so good. I think my favorite part was when they talked about how important it is to be modest and morally clean. Natalie said that if a guy is trying to spend the night or is letting you spend the night, he's not respecting you as a daughter of God.
Sunday night, we may or may not have participated in the heist of a certain DVD. It's still up for debate as to whether we were active participants or not. If it did happen, it was quite thrilling, and Abbie and I certainly got a good work out from it when we ran back to our apartment.
Monday was the same old same. Except holy cow stressful! BYU application was due Feb 1 and I had to get so much crap done for it. I guess it doesn't really help that I'm a killer procrastinator so I was writing my essays in between my patho class and my sociology class. But hey it all got done and before 4 pm and that's all that counts. So I went to my writing class and peach is in that class, but get this: we don't even acknowledge each others existence. It's honestly quite irritating...and I'm not even sure why because it shouldn't bug me but it really does. OH it gets even better though...peach deleted me from facebook. BAHAHA I almost friend requested peach but then I thought better of it and decided who cares.
SIDE NOTE: it's been raining!! and blowing up a hellish storm. It's somewhat irritating and I had a super hard time getting out of bed this morning because I just wanted to stay curled up in my bed and read a book.
Monday night we went to FHE and learned about the 10 commandments and the little actions that go with it. So the guy that taught the lesson...well let's call him Howie. So Howie comes up and starts talking to me after FHE. We were eating dessert and everyone else was playing bump out. At the risk of sounding super conceited, he was definitely flirting it up with me asking all the questions: OH I didn't catch your name? How long have you been here? Blah blah blah. Well I immediated decided I had to nip this one in the butt fast so that I a. Don't lead him on. and b. could still potentially be friends--alright acquaintances--if I see him at church and stuff. So I noticed he had a sports med shirt on and asked him if he worked down in the training room at all. He answered yes and so I had a way to bring up Dan without being ridiculously obvious about it. The next part of the conversation goes as follows:
Me: Oh so you do you work down there (the training room) a lot?
Howie: Yeah I do!
Me: That's cool. So do you know Dan?!
H: Umm maybe?
Me: He's short and brown.
H: Oh yeah I know him, he's pretty cool, helps me out a lot.
Me: That's awesome! He's my boyfriend!
H: Oh your boyfriend?!
Me: Yeah!
H: Wow.....cool.
OHHH man I had to keep myself from laughing because it really was quite funny but sad at the same time. I didn't mean to be so cut and dry, but hey he'll thank me later when he doesn't have to waste time on me right?
I'd say it's been a pretty eventful weekend and it can only get better. Raegan is wearing a moo moo and looks like an old lady with stage make up on that she had to do in class. Point made. And now we are off to visit Hannah.
Making fettucini alfredo tonight for the roommates and my love. Hopefully this time I won't burn it...the distraction will be in class. ;] Well idk...Raegan might be a huge distraction right now...she's walking around with a big butt shake. Hahaha I love my roommates what can I say.
:] LOVE MY LIFE.
Thursday, January 20, 2011
You know you live in Arizona when you go tanning by the river in January
Seriously...the lives my roommates and I live. It's so hard, just let me tell you. Okay not really, I mean we went tanning by the freaking river today and read our books...while giggling like little girls about all sorts of things...mostly boys.
So yeah, we lead a pretty rough life down here. But today proved to be quite the adventure. So Raegan has been dying to go to the river for the last two day! Why you might ask? I haven't the faintest idea...she's a freak! And the water is freezing!! But today we decided to appease her, and we got all dressed to go. We decided to go to Cluff Ponds. Well, my car is currently in the process of dying on me. Go figure...it's all paid off and now it decides to start falling apart. Oh well, I guess it's about time something happened. That car is as trusty rusty as it gets. So the point of telling that was to tell you that Raegan had to drive out to Cluffs.
Well, it turns out the road is a lot smoother than I thought. Anyway, we get out to Cluffs and there are a million and one people there!!! What the heck! We just wanted to lay on the dock and read our books and tan...but apparently it was the day to go out fishing at four in the afternoon! I mean shouldn't they be at work or something?! So we decided to go to the river...after exploring a little bit of course down primitive roads and through barricades that were blocked off. Yes we're quite daring and adventurous down here...it's usually Raegan's fault.
On our way to the river, the highway was all blocked off! We later found out after running into an angry police officer (he really was quite rude--we just wanted to know where we should turn around), we found out that a tractor tipped over into the ditch!! How sad! I hope the guy that was driving it is okay.
We finally made it down to the river, layed out, and read our books and talked about boys and everything else for probably an hour or so. Then Abbie decided she was entirely too cold and we left. All in all, it was a pretty successful day...working on the tan and spending time with the roomies...but I still haven't applied to BYU. My mom JUST MIGHT kill me. Don't tell her....Abbie!
Quotes of the day:
Abbie to Cody: You just lost your privileges.
"Eat shit and die!"
"You are too twisted for colored TV."
"You are evil and you must be destroyed.
Mother Nature is taking care of that faster than you will."
--Steel Magnolias
So yeah, we lead a pretty rough life down here. But today proved to be quite the adventure. So Raegan has been dying to go to the river for the last two day! Why you might ask? I haven't the faintest idea...she's a freak! And the water is freezing!! But today we decided to appease her, and we got all dressed to go. We decided to go to Cluff Ponds. Well, my car is currently in the process of dying on me. Go figure...it's all paid off and now it decides to start falling apart. Oh well, I guess it's about time something happened. That car is as trusty rusty as it gets. So the point of telling that was to tell you that Raegan had to drive out to Cluffs.
Well, it turns out the road is a lot smoother than I thought. Anyway, we get out to Cluffs and there are a million and one people there!!! What the heck! We just wanted to lay on the dock and read our books and tan...but apparently it was the day to go out fishing at four in the afternoon! I mean shouldn't they be at work or something?! So we decided to go to the river...after exploring a little bit of course down primitive roads and through barricades that were blocked off. Yes we're quite daring and adventurous down here...it's usually Raegan's fault.
On our way to the river, the highway was all blocked off! We later found out after running into an angry police officer (he really was quite rude--we just wanted to know where we should turn around), we found out that a tractor tipped over into the ditch!! How sad! I hope the guy that was driving it is okay.
We finally made it down to the river, layed out, and read our books and talked about boys and everything else for probably an hour or so. Then Abbie decided she was entirely too cold and we left. All in all, it was a pretty successful day...working on the tan and spending time with the roomies...but I still haven't applied to BYU. My mom JUST MIGHT kill me. Don't tell her....Abbie!
Quotes of the day:
Abbie to Cody: You just lost your privileges.
"Eat shit and die!"
"You are too twisted for colored TV."
"You are evil and you must be destroyed.
Mother Nature is taking care of that faster than you will."
--Steel Magnolias
Saturday, January 1, 2011
It makes her feel close.
So I like sleeping with the Mater side of my blanket closest to me. It makes me feel just a little bit closer, like somehow it makes him not as far away.
I’ve let go…finally. I guess three months into a serious relationship is about dang time to let it go. As much as I’d like to think my own little noodle came up with this on its own, it didn’t. I had a little help (okay a lot of help) along the way.
It’s time. Time to recognize the beautiful blessings I’ve been given, and that there is a time and a season for everything. I was given one of the greatest blessings in a friend at that point in my life in Jake Clark.
He was everything I could have ever asked for in a friend and always knew what to say or how to say it even if I didn’t want to hear it, especially when I didn’t want to hear that. I will forever and always cherish the friendship we made and I will be grateful to him for a very, very long time for all the things I have learned from him. I’ve learned to be a little more patient and understanding of people and what is going on—now I’m still working on it. It’s a constant work in progress. Anyone that is around me for an extended amount of time could tell you that. But I am trying. I’ve also learned to rely on the Lord, not from him, but he was always a good example of just the basic and simple reading your scriptures and saying your prayers on a daily basis.
In learning to more fully rely on the Lord, I have recognized another blessing I’ve been given in Dan Haban. I honestly for the life of me cannot figure out why he has stuck around for so long when it’s taken me this long to realize what I have! Holy crap I probably would’ve hit the road running a LONG time ago. I’m still learning from him, so much. I’ve learned how to laugh and have fun in new ways. I mean who would’ve ever thought that getting eaten alive by mosquitoes while coyote calling would be fun…but it is! Or making a “love-sac” from two yards of bright orange fleece? Or even just turning the couches around and watching Grey’s Anatomy? I can honestly say I don’t think I’ve ever had so much fun and been so happy.
Talking to Abbie tonight helped me realize some things too. Jake is always going to be a friend. That is not changing. I’ll still write him letters because that’s what friends do: support and uplift each other. But Dan…he’s something different. And I intend to hold onto that for a long time.
I don’t know how much of this is making sense because well it’s almost 3 in the morning and I’ve been slightly delusional for the last couple of hours…I’m blaming Raegan and Abbie…oh and Martinelli’s.
Recognize a good thing…a great thing…perhaps the best thing, when you’ve got it. And then do all that you can to hold onto it. I’m glad I’ve recognized mine. Have you?
See 2011: I’m already just a little wiser…and it’s only been 3 hours! Think of what a whole year will do!
Sunday, December 5, 2010
FEAR THE FORK! Babies and HD TV, and Ugly Sweater Parties...hmm sounds like a week in Thatcher.
This blog has been in the works for a couple of days because, let's just face it, this week was intense!! We'll just start with by far one of the most epic games I've ever been to! (Okay I've only been to one other D1 game...so I don't know how I'm ever gonna sit through another one, but that's alright).
THURSDAY: So let's just say that holy cow...fear the fork. Yeahhhh buddy. If you'd like to read about the game, well Hannah Gunderson was so kind to write down the proceedings of the game. Read here :] While we were driving down there, Dan was on the po po watch (aka the cop watch) and I'm flying down the highway, going like almost 85--it's 75 out there. So I'm just cruising along, out of no where:
Dan: COP!
Arielle: Oh shit!
[Nervous laughter]
Yes, that's exactly how it went down. Excuse the language, but seriously I saw my insurance bill flash before my eyes. It was awesome. But the whole trip down there was super fun! We hung out at Raegan's house and ate some delish dinner and headed out to the game! ASU of course won!! Thanks so much to U of A's kicker. It's alright buddy...maybe next year you'll learn how to kick a little higher. Then the drive home, so cute. Dan just held my hand the whole time. :] Okay so the boy doesn't take losing too well, but it's okay, because at the end of the day he still likes me...even if I'm a sun devil. We played the make it or break it game with every one in the car--you know the one where it's a scenario of pretty much the perfect person, except one thing. It was super funny to hear the things that people came up with. Haha.
TUESDAY: So I let Dan read the last post on Tuesday night when he was over, and well needless to say, it was one of the most nerve racking moments of my life. I just climbed in my bed and faced the wall and was focusing on breathing. Not even joking. I didn't know what to do!! And he was just sitting on the end of my bed. I swear it was like a freaking half an hour to read it! Not really, but it felt like forever. So then, he gets up really quietly because he thought I was asleep or something, he kissed my cheek, and whispered really quietly, really softly: I love you. Oh dang I was awake. So he walks out, and then I was waiting for a second or two. I rolled over and looked at Abbie, thinking the whole time that Dan had already left, and we just started busting up laughing. And it wasn't exactly quiet laughter either. It was LOUD!!
Then we heard it...the door creaking open. Oh shiz. Yes we had just been caught laughing at him...and he hadn't even left yet! That was the worst! Okay I guess I should clear that up, we weren't laughing at him, more that the previous event had just transpired. I was NEVER, and I mean EVER, gonna let him read my blog, and then Abbie was like Arielle you have to let him read that post at least, and then I just gave it up, so yeah he's probably reading this right now...HI Dan!
WEDNESDAY: I was walking back from the institute with Jacquelyn Wolfe, Nicole Baldwin, and Tiffany Brimhall. We had just been watching Nicole's brother, Brian, basketball game. So we're walking home and we were talking about four letter words, and out of no where,
Nicole said: I bet when it happens, there's gonna be other four letter words associated with it. Dan's gonna say, Damn I love you.
[Then Jacquelyn pipes in]
Jacq: Yeah and Arielle's gonna say, Oh shit.
To make things even funnier, we all agreed that that would probably happen, or at least it was very very likely that it would come out like that!
FRIDAY: Okay this is what happens in the wee hours of the morning. Abbie and I end up talking about everything and anything...and lately, I end up balling my eyes out. (Honestly, I've realized lately that I'm such a ball baby! It's absolutely ridiculous.) The conversation spanned everything you could think of. Really. We talked about babies and HD tvs--which I think we've both decided that you can't tell the difference between HD and regular. We ended up being awake until 6!! I think I decided about 430 that it was pointless to even count on going to sleep!
So a few hours later, I wake up to go to class...yeah I made it through about 10 minutes of it. I couldn't even convince myself to stay. So Dan picked me up, and I hung out at his house for a couple hours...never quite getting to sleep. Ugh it was ridiculous. Let's just be nice and say I looked like a zombie. And that's putting it nicely. To finish off my day, I studied and went to bed around 1030, because I had to take my CNA test in the morning.
SATURDAY: Driving at 430 in the am. Highly recommend it. There is absolutely no one on the road! Except coyotes...which like to hide around corners and lay dead in the road. I'm pretty sure I just took off the head of the coyote and kept driving. But dang, I was awake!! Holy crap I was awake. The adrenaline was pumping and there was no way I was falling asleep after that.
So I'm sitting in the hallway and reading over my skills before I went to go take the skills test, and I just really missed Dan. I had just seen him, no joke 6 hours ago, and I would see him later in the day. I totally missed him though and I wanted to see him!! Ugh...the only bad thing about boyfriends, I find that I miss him in the most random times. Like at times when I should be stressing over a huge test...I missed him. And it was all I could do on the drive home not to speed like a crazy person just so I could get home faster and see him.
Then Saturday night, Monica got baptized!! I've gone to a few baptisms this year, and this one was so special. The talks were so amazing and the missionaries had everyone write down their testimony and put it in a book for her. Writing it down was so special to me. I hope she always remembers it, and honestly I think it was the best thing for me to just think about what I believe in and what I know to be true. It made me remember and realize what my institute teacher tells us every time we leave class...The Lord loves you and the Church is true.
Later, there was an ugly sweater party at my house! Haha super fun! We had a white elephant gift exchange. Dan picked first. Well Dan's gift was handcuffs and a stick horse. Okay, I don't think I've turned so many shades of red all at once. Everyone was like OHHHHHH!! Then a couple of gifts later, someone opened a pregnancy test. Then they asked if Dan and I wanted it...because apparently we were gonna need it for later. WHAT-E-VER!!! It gets better though, my number to pick was 24, so I picked my gift and it was fake money and police badges. Once again, I almost died. Haha then everyone really gave us crap for the gifts! When it came time for Brian to pick his gift, he asked this: If I trade with Dan, does Arielle come in handcuffs? Greattttt. Haha.
Well it's been a great couple of days...and honestly Matt Pellegrini right now wants me to leave my blog and go look at Christmas lights THAT AREN'T EVEN UP YET!! Hahah. Oh well, anyway it's been fun!! Seriously so much fun. Last night was by far one of the funnest nights in Thatcher thus far!
Quotes of the day:
hi my name is abbie colyar. i just took a shower and now I'm freezing. and I'm a mormon.
she didn't hear the wedding bells...she heard the wedding night.
THURSDAY: So let's just say that holy cow...fear the fork. Yeahhhh buddy. If you'd like to read about the game, well Hannah Gunderson was so kind to write down the proceedings of the game. Read here :] While we were driving down there, Dan was on the po po watch (aka the cop watch) and I'm flying down the highway, going like almost 85--it's 75 out there. So I'm just cruising along, out of no where:
Dan: COP!
Arielle: Oh shit!
[Nervous laughter]
Yes, that's exactly how it went down. Excuse the language, but seriously I saw my insurance bill flash before my eyes. It was awesome. But the whole trip down there was super fun! We hung out at Raegan's house and ate some delish dinner and headed out to the game! ASU of course won!! Thanks so much to U of A's kicker. It's alright buddy...maybe next year you'll learn how to kick a little higher. Then the drive home, so cute. Dan just held my hand the whole time. :] Okay so the boy doesn't take losing too well, but it's okay, because at the end of the day he still likes me...even if I'm a sun devil. We played the make it or break it game with every one in the car--you know the one where it's a scenario of pretty much the perfect person, except one thing. It was super funny to hear the things that people came up with. Haha.
TUESDAY: So I let Dan read the last post on Tuesday night when he was over, and well needless to say, it was one of the most nerve racking moments of my life. I just climbed in my bed and faced the wall and was focusing on breathing. Not even joking. I didn't know what to do!! And he was just sitting on the end of my bed. I swear it was like a freaking half an hour to read it! Not really, but it felt like forever. So then, he gets up really quietly because he thought I was asleep or something, he kissed my cheek, and whispered really quietly, really softly: I love you. Oh dang I was awake. So he walks out, and then I was waiting for a second or two. I rolled over and looked at Abbie, thinking the whole time that Dan had already left, and we just started busting up laughing. And it wasn't exactly quiet laughter either. It was LOUD!!
Then we heard it...the door creaking open. Oh shiz. Yes we had just been caught laughing at him...and he hadn't even left yet! That was the worst! Okay I guess I should clear that up, we weren't laughing at him, more that the previous event had just transpired. I was NEVER, and I mean EVER, gonna let him read my blog, and then Abbie was like Arielle you have to let him read that post at least, and then I just gave it up, so yeah he's probably reading this right now...HI Dan!
WEDNESDAY: I was walking back from the institute with Jacquelyn Wolfe, Nicole Baldwin, and Tiffany Brimhall. We had just been watching Nicole's brother, Brian, basketball game. So we're walking home and we were talking about four letter words, and out of no where,
Nicole said: I bet when it happens, there's gonna be other four letter words associated with it. Dan's gonna say, Damn I love you.
[Then Jacquelyn pipes in]
Jacq: Yeah and Arielle's gonna say, Oh shit.
To make things even funnier, we all agreed that that would probably happen, or at least it was very very likely that it would come out like that!
FRIDAY: Okay this is what happens in the wee hours of the morning. Abbie and I end up talking about everything and anything...and lately, I end up balling my eyes out. (Honestly, I've realized lately that I'm such a ball baby! It's absolutely ridiculous.) The conversation spanned everything you could think of. Really. We talked about babies and HD tvs--which I think we've both decided that you can't tell the difference between HD and regular. We ended up being awake until 6!! I think I decided about 430 that it was pointless to even count on going to sleep!
So a few hours later, I wake up to go to class...yeah I made it through about 10 minutes of it. I couldn't even convince myself to stay. So Dan picked me up, and I hung out at his house for a couple hours...never quite getting to sleep. Ugh it was ridiculous. Let's just be nice and say I looked like a zombie. And that's putting it nicely. To finish off my day, I studied and went to bed around 1030, because I had to take my CNA test in the morning.
SATURDAY: Driving at 430 in the am. Highly recommend it. There is absolutely no one on the road! Except coyotes...which like to hide around corners and lay dead in the road. I'm pretty sure I just took off the head of the coyote and kept driving. But dang, I was awake!! Holy crap I was awake. The adrenaline was pumping and there was no way I was falling asleep after that.
So I'm sitting in the hallway and reading over my skills before I went to go take the skills test, and I just really missed Dan. I had just seen him, no joke 6 hours ago, and I would see him later in the day. I totally missed him though and I wanted to see him!! Ugh...the only bad thing about boyfriends, I find that I miss him in the most random times. Like at times when I should be stressing over a huge test...I missed him. And it was all I could do on the drive home not to speed like a crazy person just so I could get home faster and see him.
Then Saturday night, Monica got baptized!! I've gone to a few baptisms this year, and this one was so special. The talks were so amazing and the missionaries had everyone write down their testimony and put it in a book for her. Writing it down was so special to me. I hope she always remembers it, and honestly I think it was the best thing for me to just think about what I believe in and what I know to be true. It made me remember and realize what my institute teacher tells us every time we leave class...The Lord loves you and the Church is true.
Later, there was an ugly sweater party at my house! Haha super fun! We had a white elephant gift exchange. Dan picked first. Well Dan's gift was handcuffs and a stick horse. Okay, I don't think I've turned so many shades of red all at once. Everyone was like OHHHHHH!! Then a couple of gifts later, someone opened a pregnancy test. Then they asked if Dan and I wanted it...because apparently we were gonna need it for later. WHAT-E-VER!!! It gets better though, my number to pick was 24, so I picked my gift and it was fake money and police badges. Once again, I almost died. Haha then everyone really gave us crap for the gifts! When it came time for Brian to pick his gift, he asked this: If I trade with Dan, does Arielle come in handcuffs? Greattttt. Haha.
Well it's been a great couple of days...and honestly Matt Pellegrini right now wants me to leave my blog and go look at Christmas lights THAT AREN'T EVEN UP YET!! Hahah. Oh well, anyway it's been fun!! Seriously so much fun. Last night was by far one of the funnest nights in Thatcher thus far!
Quotes of the day:
hi my name is abbie colyar. i just took a shower and now I'm freezing. and I'm a mormon.
she didn't hear the wedding bells...she heard the wedding night.
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
What are you guys...50 and married?!
Okay so this blog title has absolutely nothing to do with what I wanted to blog about, but Abbie and I were talking about blogging and Rustin made the comment: What are you guys...50 and married?! That's like what my mom and all her friends do! Hahaha it was hilarious!
So really this blog is to fulfill a "prophesy" if you can call it that without being sacrilegious, but this is honestly so cute that it has to be shared.
A very cold morning i wake up and shes not there,
So i look straight up and i start to stare.
I wonder in my mind, "is she still asleep?"
Thinking about the next time we'd be able to meet.
A fell asleep thinking about her as a friend,
First thing in the morning is me thinking, "wow i hope this never ends"
Everyday we've seen each other for a little over two months,
Except of course when i have to leave for my hunts.
I've definitely savored every moment that we spend,
And then it comes to my mind, "Is she now my best friend?"
Every laugh, every sigh, every single goodbye,
Has been the moments where i can see our relationship fly!
I hate it sometimes when with her i act so sappy,
I just don't know how to express that when I'm with her I'm happy!
I'll probably give her this dream,
and she'll probably share it on her blog.
Kendra and Abbie will probably think I'm in love.
But she's different then what i initially thought.
She has a lot more for me, and i guess that's why i fought.
So here's to my sweetheart, even if it last or it doesn't.
To my Arielle, You are so beautiful! Thanks for giving me a lot of things that i haven't.
Okay, in reading this again, I could honestly cry, and I realized how emotionally retarded I am. Seriously, why can't I just say what I feel? I think it's a defect in myself. Oh well, I guess it'll just have to come out in different ways. I guess I never paid attention to showing it, because I've always known how I've felt (obviously) but I never thought that he didn't know. It's so dumb that I just can't say it straight up and out loud.
Like we were talking the other night, and he asked me what I looked for in a guy. Not a big deal at all. But I froze. It's like I know exactly what I want, but actually voicing it to someone, especially someone that I care about a lot, it's just hard. I shut down. Completely. Well it gets better, the next question was What do you see in me? Umm...can I chew this one over with a Twix please? I know this sounds incredibly dumb and stupid, but how do I put it into words and say it out loud how I feel? I've never been that person that can just come up with stuff like poems and sweet nothings to say. I just can't. I don't know what's wrong with me. Hmm...one day I'll figure this out.
But in the meantime...here's to you :]
I love the way you make me laugh...all the time about anything. I love that you care so much about me and you always want to know how I'm doing. I love that I can be myself around you and say whatever comes to mind (which happens quite frequently and not always in the most tactful way) and know that you won't judge me for it. I love the way you hold my hand. It's so secure and safe (if that's the proper word for it). I love the way you talk about your family, especially your brother. I know that it can't be easy for you to talk about someone that was close to you like that, but I'm glad that you do. I love the questions that you ask me (mostly because I suck at asking questions and I'm better at answering...most of them). I absolutely love that you take your priesthood and callings so seriously. I always swore up and down I'd never marry someone like my dad, but you have so many of the things that I absolutely love about him, like the way you honor your priesthood. With my dad, I know I never have to worry about whether or not he can give me a blessing because I know he always makes sure every single day that he is worthy, and I love that I feel that way about you too. I love feeling safe around you, because I know that you would never let anything happen to me or hurt me. I love that you are always making sure we're doing what is right and that we're not getting ourselves into situations that would get us into trouble. I love that look in your eyes that you get when you first see me in the morning. I love the way that you always let me know how grateful you are for me or how much I mean to you.
So this is to tell you what you mean to me. I'm so grateful for you. I know how far we've come and I honestly hope we get to go farther. I look back on it all, and I wouldn't change it for the world. All of that, that got me here. That experience helped me grow and learn. I think it did that for you too. I am so grateful that you decided to fight just when I had almost given up. I will always be grateful for the things that I've learned from you. I've never gone coyote calling...so that was new. As embarrassing as it was, it was so much fun to just be out there with you, getting eaten alive by mosquitoes, and scaring away anything that might possibly be coming in because I was laughing so hard. I've never had so much fun hiding from you, like when we were down in Sierra Vista for Jared's homecoming. It was so exciting to show up at church and surprise you! I will never forget that look on your face. It was a smile that I could never put into words. With you, I feel so happy and so safe. At the risk of sounding totally sappy, I never knew how much I was missing and how much someone else can make you realized what you're missing in yourself.
I've had the time of my life fighting dragons with you...and I hope we get to fight many many more.
So now the whole world...well really just Abbie and Kendra (but we'll go with the whole world--it sounds cooler) knows. And I feel like shouting it at the top of my lungs and writing it across every billboard. :]
Loveyou. <3
So really this blog is to fulfill a "prophesy" if you can call it that without being sacrilegious, but this is honestly so cute that it has to be shared.
A very cold morning i wake up and shes not there,
So i look straight up and i start to stare.
I wonder in my mind, "is she still asleep?"
Thinking about the next time we'd be able to meet.
A fell asleep thinking about her as a friend,
First thing in the morning is me thinking, "wow i hope this never ends"
Everyday we've seen each other for a little over two months,
Except of course when i have to leave for my hunts.
I've definitely savored every moment that we spend,
And then it comes to my mind, "Is she now my best friend?"
Every laugh, every sigh, every single goodbye,
Has been the moments where i can see our relationship fly!
I hate it sometimes when with her i act so sappy,
I just don't know how to express that when I'm with her I'm happy!
I'll probably give her this dream,
and she'll probably share it on her blog.
Kendra and Abbie will probably think I'm in love.
But she's different then what i initially thought.
She has a lot more for me, and i guess that's why i fought.
So here's to my sweetheart, even if it last or it doesn't.
To my Arielle, You are so beautiful! Thanks for giving me a lot of things that i haven't.
Okay, in reading this again, I could honestly cry, and I realized how emotionally retarded I am. Seriously, why can't I just say what I feel? I think it's a defect in myself. Oh well, I guess it'll just have to come out in different ways. I guess I never paid attention to showing it, because I've always known how I've felt (obviously) but I never thought that he didn't know. It's so dumb that I just can't say it straight up and out loud.
Like we were talking the other night, and he asked me what I looked for in a guy. Not a big deal at all. But I froze. It's like I know exactly what I want, but actually voicing it to someone, especially someone that I care about a lot, it's just hard. I shut down. Completely. Well it gets better, the next question was What do you see in me? Umm...can I chew this one over with a Twix please? I know this sounds incredibly dumb and stupid, but how do I put it into words and say it out loud how I feel? I've never been that person that can just come up with stuff like poems and sweet nothings to say. I just can't. I don't know what's wrong with me. Hmm...one day I'll figure this out.
But in the meantime...here's to you :]
I love the way you make me laugh...all the time about anything. I love that you care so much about me and you always want to know how I'm doing. I love that I can be myself around you and say whatever comes to mind (which happens quite frequently and not always in the most tactful way) and know that you won't judge me for it. I love the way you hold my hand. It's so secure and safe (if that's the proper word for it). I love the way you talk about your family, especially your brother. I know that it can't be easy for you to talk about someone that was close to you like that, but I'm glad that you do. I love the questions that you ask me (mostly because I suck at asking questions and I'm better at answering...most of them). I absolutely love that you take your priesthood and callings so seriously. I always swore up and down I'd never marry someone like my dad, but you have so many of the things that I absolutely love about him, like the way you honor your priesthood. With my dad, I know I never have to worry about whether or not he can give me a blessing because I know he always makes sure every single day that he is worthy, and I love that I feel that way about you too. I love feeling safe around you, because I know that you would never let anything happen to me or hurt me. I love that you are always making sure we're doing what is right and that we're not getting ourselves into situations that would get us into trouble. I love that look in your eyes that you get when you first see me in the morning. I love the way that you always let me know how grateful you are for me or how much I mean to you.
So this is to tell you what you mean to me. I'm so grateful for you. I know how far we've come and I honestly hope we get to go farther. I look back on it all, and I wouldn't change it for the world. All of that, that got me here. That experience helped me grow and learn. I think it did that for you too. I am so grateful that you decided to fight just when I had almost given up. I will always be grateful for the things that I've learned from you. I've never gone coyote calling...so that was new. As embarrassing as it was, it was so much fun to just be out there with you, getting eaten alive by mosquitoes, and scaring away anything that might possibly be coming in because I was laughing so hard. I've never had so much fun hiding from you, like when we were down in Sierra Vista for Jared's homecoming. It was so exciting to show up at church and surprise you! I will never forget that look on your face. It was a smile that I could never put into words. With you, I feel so happy and so safe. At the risk of sounding totally sappy, I never knew how much I was missing and how much someone else can make you realized what you're missing in yourself.
I've had the time of my life fighting dragons with you...and I hope we get to fight many many more.
So now the whole world...well really just Abbie and Kendra (but we'll go with the whole world--it sounds cooler) knows. And I feel like shouting it at the top of my lungs and writing it across every billboard. :]
Loveyou. <3
Monday, November 15, 2010
I had the time of my life fighting dragons with you
Yes Taylor Swift was the inspiration for this title. And yes 1003 in the AM on Monday November 15. And yes, this post probably won't find blogger for another week or so. Oh and yes I am using the toaster to provide a source of heat for my frigid apartment...we've really gotta find a space heater.
So last night after the fireside, my roommates and I came home with an ABUNDANCE of energy. Anyone that's spent any amount of time with us knows that this is not necessarily the best thing to have on a Sunday evening. After hopping around our apartment (Abbie), it was settled that we were going to wrap Raegan up like a baby and deliver her to someone's house. While Abbie went out to the car to get some rope, we all hid and LOCKED HER OUT! Haha sneaky sneaky.
Right after we found Raegan under Brinlee's bed with the dust bunnies, Kelton walked in and willingly volunteered to let us wrap him up, tie him up, and deliver him to someone's house. Poor soul, he's such a good sport and trusts us entirely too much. Well, we started out just putting him outside the apartment across the way. Then we got the notion to go downstairs. Yes, Kelton hopped down the stairs while tied up into a blanket like a body back. It was a scary sight to say the least.
Long story short, we ended up doing this same thing to 7 apartments. Don't worry, we got a rolly chair so Kelton didn't have to hop everywhere. It was so funny because people kept shutting the door in his face and then he'd scoot up to the door and kick it with his foot to get them to open the door. We had a note attached to him and it said "Found Baby. Needs Home. Thanks :D" Bahaha we're so funny. But the best reaction by far was down at the firehouse and Myreel started to untie him and we all ran out to stop her. Oh man haha it was hilarious the look on her face, it was that sort of shell-shocked and seriously freaked out look all at once.
Then we came back and decided to make masks and be ninjas! Wa-cha!! At this point, Dan decided he was a little pooped out--but hey I would be too if I didn't go to bed till 4 in the morning....oh wait I did. But no worries, I was home with Abbie and Raegan and Rustin and Kendall. THAT is a whole other story in itself. So we ran--yes ran--to his car (it was just at the institute), and when I got home, you're never going to believe what happened to me! I got LOCKED OUT!!! I was gone for a whole 3 minutes and they locked me out. So I spent the rest of my evening with Tiffany and Jacquelyn, waiting for my roommates to return from pillaging Howards.
Great night. Awesome night. One for the books. Now it's time to make today a FANFREAKINTASTIC day. I can't wait. :]
I got this quote in institute this morning...and I really like it.
"No pain that we suffer, no trial that we experience is wasted. All that we suffer...especially when we endure it patiently builds up our characters, purifies...[and] expands our souls." --President Kimball
Four letter words
From SUNDAY night:
Honestly not quite sure how I feel about this. So abbie and I had a good conversation the other night--mind you all our good conversations tend to happen in the wee hours of the morning, typically four or five in the AM. This conversation was no exception.
So there's a couple down here that just got engaged like a week ago and they haven't been dating that much longer than Dan and I, and honestly it freaked me the heck out. I mean it's not a big deal at all, but seriously holy crap! It's MARRIAGE! That's forever, and forever is a freakin long time. I don't want to rush into it or be rushed and I want to be absolutely certain that it's the right thing to do.
The conversation ended up with me deciding that I don't have to know right now if this is the forever I'm looking for. That maybe this is just right for right now, that I'm where I'm supposed to be and I'm who I'm supposed to be with for right now, because I'm supposed to learn something from this experience, something that will help me grow and learn for the future.
Some food for thought. Okay really just my thoughts. Goodnight.
Sunday, October 24, 2010
Thrift Store Shopping, Surprises, Fun Dates, Apple Orchards, Ladybug Hikes, and Fugitive
Wow...let's just say it's been an insane weekend. But, a good insane. A great insane. A fantastic insane. So let's just start from the beginning shall we?
FRIDAY: After I got done with classes and Raegan got home from work, Hannah Gunderson, Abbie, Raegan and I went thrift store shopping! The end goal for this adventure was to get our halloween costumes!! Right before we went shopping though, Raegan and I went to WalMart to go grocery shopping, because I was OUT of food. I got a question of the day text from Hannah: What is your favorite kind of flower? Well let's see...tulips and sunflowers. So we get home, and go thrift store shopping. This grand adventure was successful! Hannah, Abbie and I all got our moo-moos to wear on halloween!! SHHHH!It's a secret! Don't tell anyone...KENDRA. :] We even tried on antique wedding dresses, and let's just say that we all look absolutely fabulous in white. Haha.
We got home from thrift store shopping and started watching a movie. There's a knock on our door and I peaked my head over to see who it was, and it was Dan!!!!!! He was supposed to be in Texas still with the football team and they'd actually gotten home earlier that day and he didn't tell me! So I saw him, and then leaned back into the couch and stared forward for what probably seemed like forever. Then I've got Nicole Baldwin yelling at me to get up and give him a hug! DUH! But I yelled back at her (she's sitting right next to me): I can't! I'm in shock! Which honestly, I had no idea how to react to that. I was gonna leave him a note on his truck and everything and I just hadn't planned on him being home early. So thoughts aside, I got up and gave him a hug and he had FLOWERS!!! Sneaky sneaky Hannah! Haha they were so pretty! Then he asked if I wanted to go on a date tonight, and OF COURSE I DID!
On the date was Brian Baldwin, Brenna Bell, Cody Elmer, Becca Streeter, and Dan and I. The boys made dinner for us, biscuits and gravy...MY FAVORITE!! Then we went to WalMart to pick out a pumpkin to carve at a later date, and we had to pick out stuff to make a costume for two people for under $15. Dan and I were walking around and seriously had no ideas of what to be, so we ended up in the fabric section. Then out of no where, Dan had the idea to be a giant lovesac. Now the dilemma was just what fabric to get. Well no worries, we settled...and I mean settled...for BRIGHT ORANGE FLEECE fabric. Yeah, it was awesome. Brenna saw us getting it and was like, are you guys gonna be traffic cones?! Close, but good idea. Haha. We went back to the boys apartment and got dressed. Becca and Cody were Raggedy Anne and Andy. Brenna and Brian were a cowgirl and a prego Indian (Brenna was the Indian). It was pretty funny, and by far one of the funnest dates I've been on in a long time!
SATURDAY: Museum clean up. Easily one of the most disgusting things I've done in a long time. Okay it wasn't that bad, but one of the rooms I couldn't even go into and poor Raegan and Seth Anderson were major troupers and cleaned it. There was bat poop and pee all over the floor and two dead bats. SICK!! Doing service though, which was the entire goal, that was good. We had a fun time looking at all the little exhibits and rooms too!
After the museum clean up, we went to R&R for lunch. We came home, took quick power naps, and then were on our way up Mount Graham to go pick apples from Angle Orchard. It was so much fun and it smelled soooo delicious. It would honestly be such a cool place to take pictures, or to just sit down and read. It was so peaceful up there. So we picked some apples to make this apple crisp pie that Raegan makes. HOLY COW...DELICIOUS! Then we started on the ladybug hike.
Well halfway up the hike, Nicole and I decided that we didn't want to keep walking. Okay, it was more like we were just enjoying the view from this huge rock that over looked the valley. It was absolutely beautiful. I can't even begin to describe the peace and wonder and sheer awe at the majesty of it all. I don't know how people can see the beauty in the earth and not believe there is a higher power, someone who is watching over us, someone who has our best interests in mind, someone who always has an eternal perspective and wants what is absolutely best for us. It was so amazing. Nicole and I had a nice talk too, which is always good. I love good talks with great friends in the middle of nowhere, when everything's quiet and you can just think.
When we got back, we went to Denny's for dinner and then Dan came and picked me up. We went over to Taylor Stevens' house to watch the UFC fight. Dan's friend, Bryson Bendall was there with his girlfriend, so we hung out with them. It was definitely an interesting experience. I've never watched a fight in my life so that was different, not gross, but different. I wouldn't say I'd never watch one again, but it's not something that I'll go out of my way to see. Later that night, we played fugitive and pretty much, Dan and I dominated. The first round, Dan, Seth and I ran along the canal and jumped a fence to get to Dennys. We were the first ones there! WAHOO!! Then on the second round, Dan and I were one group of cops. So we parked across the street from Darrin and Cord's house, where base was. We hid in the trees and then when everyone came up to get to base, we tagged them all! It was awesome!!
SUNDAY: Went to church, then halfway through Relief Society, Dan texted me and said his family was eating dinner. So long story short, I ended up church hopping. I left right after the lesson in relief society was over, and then took the sacrament in third ward. Dan picked me up and we had dinner at Matt and Rhianna's house. I met Dan's parents. It was not as bad as I thought it was going to be. His parents are hilarious and super nice. Hopefully they liked me! The fireside was awesome tonight. It was about who you take along with you in this ride of life and how these people are the ones you lean on during bumps in the road: your family, good friends, and ultimately the Savior. I really liked it. It put perspective on my life, and also scared me a little bit.
Up till now, my life has been pretty easy. There's not been anything that's honestly rocked my world, and that terrifies me for what's ahead. I know that I don't need to fear anything as long as I'm doing what's right and what has been asked of me, but it's just one of those things you think about, hopefully not for too long or else you'll live in fear your whole life, and I for one do NOT intend to do that by any means of the imagination. Anyway, let's just say it's been a great weekend. One for the books. And Abbie and Kendra: if you read this whole thing, major props...because it's a longgggg sucker. Haha.
I found this quote written on a post it in my scriptures: Be where the Lord can find you.
Just some food for thought.
FRIDAY: After I got done with classes and Raegan got home from work, Hannah Gunderson, Abbie, Raegan and I went thrift store shopping! The end goal for this adventure was to get our halloween costumes!! Right before we went shopping though, Raegan and I went to WalMart to go grocery shopping, because I was OUT of food. I got a question of the day text from Hannah: What is your favorite kind of flower? Well let's see...tulips and sunflowers. So we get home, and go thrift store shopping. This grand adventure was successful! Hannah, Abbie and I all got our moo-moos to wear on halloween!! SHHHH!It's a secret! Don't tell anyone...KENDRA. :] We even tried on antique wedding dresses, and let's just say that we all look absolutely fabulous in white. Haha.
We got home from thrift store shopping and started watching a movie. There's a knock on our door and I peaked my head over to see who it was, and it was Dan!!!!!! He was supposed to be in Texas still with the football team and they'd actually gotten home earlier that day and he didn't tell me! So I saw him, and then leaned back into the couch and stared forward for what probably seemed like forever. Then I've got Nicole Baldwin yelling at me to get up and give him a hug! DUH! But I yelled back at her (she's sitting right next to me): I can't! I'm in shock! Which honestly, I had no idea how to react to that. I was gonna leave him a note on his truck and everything and I just hadn't planned on him being home early. So thoughts aside, I got up and gave him a hug and he had FLOWERS!!! Sneaky sneaky Hannah! Haha they were so pretty! Then he asked if I wanted to go on a date tonight, and OF COURSE I DID!
On the date was Brian Baldwin, Brenna Bell, Cody Elmer, Becca Streeter, and Dan and I. The boys made dinner for us, biscuits and gravy...MY FAVORITE!! Then we went to WalMart to pick out a pumpkin to carve at a later date, and we had to pick out stuff to make a costume for two people for under $15. Dan and I were walking around and seriously had no ideas of what to be, so we ended up in the fabric section. Then out of no where, Dan had the idea to be a giant lovesac. Now the dilemma was just what fabric to get. Well no worries, we settled...and I mean settled...for BRIGHT ORANGE FLEECE fabric. Yeah, it was awesome. Brenna saw us getting it and was like, are you guys gonna be traffic cones?! Close, but good idea. Haha. We went back to the boys apartment and got dressed. Becca and Cody were Raggedy Anne and Andy. Brenna and Brian were a cowgirl and a prego Indian (Brenna was the Indian). It was pretty funny, and by far one of the funnest dates I've been on in a long time!
SATURDAY: Museum clean up. Easily one of the most disgusting things I've done in a long time. Okay it wasn't that bad, but one of the rooms I couldn't even go into and poor Raegan and Seth Anderson were major troupers and cleaned it. There was bat poop and pee all over the floor and two dead bats. SICK!! Doing service though, which was the entire goal, that was good. We had a fun time looking at all the little exhibits and rooms too!
After the museum clean up, we went to R&R for lunch. We came home, took quick power naps, and then were on our way up Mount Graham to go pick apples from Angle Orchard. It was so much fun and it smelled soooo delicious. It would honestly be such a cool place to take pictures, or to just sit down and read. It was so peaceful up there. So we picked some apples to make this apple crisp pie that Raegan makes. HOLY COW...DELICIOUS! Then we started on the ladybug hike.
Well halfway up the hike, Nicole and I decided that we didn't want to keep walking. Okay, it was more like we were just enjoying the view from this huge rock that over looked the valley. It was absolutely beautiful. I can't even begin to describe the peace and wonder and sheer awe at the majesty of it all. I don't know how people can see the beauty in the earth and not believe there is a higher power, someone who is watching over us, someone who has our best interests in mind, someone who always has an eternal perspective and wants what is absolutely best for us. It was so amazing. Nicole and I had a nice talk too, which is always good. I love good talks with great friends in the middle of nowhere, when everything's quiet and you can just think.
When we got back, we went to Denny's for dinner and then Dan came and picked me up. We went over to Taylor Stevens' house to watch the UFC fight. Dan's friend, Bryson Bendall was there with his girlfriend, so we hung out with them. It was definitely an interesting experience. I've never watched a fight in my life so that was different, not gross, but different. I wouldn't say I'd never watch one again, but it's not something that I'll go out of my way to see. Later that night, we played fugitive and pretty much, Dan and I dominated. The first round, Dan, Seth and I ran along the canal and jumped a fence to get to Dennys. We were the first ones there! WAHOO!! Then on the second round, Dan and I were one group of cops. So we parked across the street from Darrin and Cord's house, where base was. We hid in the trees and then when everyone came up to get to base, we tagged them all! It was awesome!!
SUNDAY: Went to church, then halfway through Relief Society, Dan texted me and said his family was eating dinner. So long story short, I ended up church hopping. I left right after the lesson in relief society was over, and then took the sacrament in third ward. Dan picked me up and we had dinner at Matt and Rhianna's house. I met Dan's parents. It was not as bad as I thought it was going to be. His parents are hilarious and super nice. Hopefully they liked me! The fireside was awesome tonight. It was about who you take along with you in this ride of life and how these people are the ones you lean on during bumps in the road: your family, good friends, and ultimately the Savior. I really liked it. It put perspective on my life, and also scared me a little bit.
Up till now, my life has been pretty easy. There's not been anything that's honestly rocked my world, and that terrifies me for what's ahead. I know that I don't need to fear anything as long as I'm doing what's right and what has been asked of me, but it's just one of those things you think about, hopefully not for too long or else you'll live in fear your whole life, and I for one do NOT intend to do that by any means of the imagination. Anyway, let's just say it's been a great weekend. One for the books. And Abbie and Kendra: if you read this whole thing, major props...because it's a longgggg sucker. Haha.
I found this quote written on a post it in my scriptures: Be where the Lord can find you.
Just some food for thought.
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